it was exactly one year ago today that i made the dumbest mistake of my life. and i am still paying for it. so of course i got back into my depressed mode again. im starting to realize that i will never ever be the same again, and im starting to call this depressing place home. There's a quote from the book The Heroin Diaries by Nikki Sixx that i really liked. it goes:
"The feeling of completely giving into your demons is hopeless, but when you can't climb your way out of such a hole, you tend to crouch down and call it home."
I've never agreed with that more than i do right now. Im tired of trying to fight it, so might as well accept it.
its amazing how fast time flies. my nephew will be one year old this saturday. i cant believe it. i wish i could see him. i miss him so much. i sent him a package with a bunch of clothes and toys and stuff.
Time is the only thing working on my side. It sucks but at the same time all i want is to get past this shitty time in my life. i wish it would hurry tho.
"The feeling of completely giving into your demons is hopeless, but when you can't climb your way out of such a hole, you tend to crouch down and call it home."
I've never agreed with that more than i do right now. Im tired of trying to fight it, so might as well accept it.
its amazing how fast time flies. my nephew will be one year old this saturday. i cant believe it. i wish i could see him. i miss him so much. i sent him a package with a bunch of clothes and toys and stuff.
Time is the only thing working on my side. It sucks but at the same time all i want is to get past this shitty time in my life. i wish it would hurry tho.