silverandcold666

SLC=BUST

moved to slc, and i couldnt hang. got my heart broken and came back empty handed. and now ive been depressed for 9 months just cant seem to shake it. nothing changes for the better, only for the worse. ive lost everyone that i cared about and loved. and i have never felt more alone in my life. on the bright side i finally got an amazing job, and it is keeping me somewhat sane...until the weekend or christmas break for example when i have nothing to do except drown my sorrows in a bottle and lock myself in my room for two weeks. that was the worst xmas ever. but im not going to go into that.

Things were starting to slightly look up last week until i did exactly what i told myself i wouldnt do, and fucked everything up. i know that i didnt do anything terrible, but it seems that my plan backfired and i ended up doing what i told myself i wouldnt. so i dont know i guess i will see what happens. the worst feeling ever is when i have to rely on TIME to fix things. but i guess thats the only thing i really can do is just wait and let the cards fall where they may and hope things get better.

in other news, i got my SG tattoo and my free lifetime membership...BITCHIN!!! im stoked about that. i know i havent been on here much lately, and i havent written any entries in almost a year, but i will try to keep this thing updated. i just had to go into my profile and update all my info because some of it has changed hahah...not like anyone will read this shit anyway, but fuck it. ill try to keep up on this thing. but its not like my page will go anywhere, i got this shit for life son!! yeahhh...