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Tuesday Aug 17, 2004
6th time trying to post this stupid journal. Here's my post. damn t…
My mind feels like its breaking into several shards. I'm watching L word and its bringing back my childhood.
Is my gender identity merely a spawn of the contradictions I was raised with?
How much did being called "Man-cub" every time her friends were around affect me.
Was it that I always felt like this, and I am only just now responding to it?
Am I transgender, do I wish to be a woman? Am I actually a woman?
I'm getting an eternity knot between my shoulderblades. I'm going to do this soon. I'm going to do it only by contributions from my friends - none of my own money.
Everything is connected...but, I feel as if, for me, everything is fragments, dust. I can't hold on to anything. Part of me likes it this way.
maybe the first time in my life I'm being honest with myself.
I love the female body but, I cannot be a straight man.