sillyokio

I have good reason to be upset, angry, dissappointed, etc.
I also have good reason to delete every single post I've ever made on here.

Maybe I'll change my name, or just never come back to the site.

I need something or someone to cheer me up. Even if it's just a tiny laugh.
I need a new life and more importantly a new way of thinking.


I was happy with the way my new year had started out. I truely was.
Now I'm not so sure what to think.

You want to believe the things that people say. Even if deep down you know it's probably not true.
See, that's my problem. I believe and trust entirely too much. What can I do to fix that? How do I distance myself from those that continue to hurt me?






I know. I'll stop being the drama queen you all know too well.
I am going to change my way of thinking.
No more thinking of the past. As far as I should be concerned, the past few years were just a bad dream.
No more fat jokes. I am beautiful!




Ok, on to better things.
I quit Dillards. I was incredibly burnt out. Fighting for the correct scheduling and pay was just too much to deal with. So now, I am jobless.
Again.
I purchased some antique furniture yesterday. Along with the most incredible find of the day, a typewriter that could very well be older than my mum. Maybe even as old as her mum.
And, it still works. Pictures to come later.
Today, I was driving to WalMart and I noticed an old chest of drawers sitting in someone's driveway. I stopped and got out of the car. I asked the guy who answered the door if it was for sale and how much he wanted for it. He said 25$ and it's mine.
So now, I have a gorgeous antique chest of drawers! Pictures to come later as well.

I think I'm angry with Josh, but I have a problem relaying that to him.
I'm going to attempt not contacting him. Let's see how long it takes.
Maybe I should turn my phone off for a few days?
It's not like I get any important calls, so I wouldn't be missing much.


Now I've got a reason
As time has brought new season
To carry me from this pain