I knew from the start my boyfriend cared for me but yesterday I seen something that I had never seen before. In the past with my ex's if something serious had happened to me they brushed me off. When I was in the hosiptal back in July my ex came and seen me 2 times and it was only for a few mintues long enough to bitch about something my kids did. For so long I had come to the fact that I was alone and wouldn't rely on anyone ever again. Until yesterday. I came in and my bp was so low. It was due to not having enough fluid to pump my blood. Doctor would not let me leave until I was back up to normal and I had my children with me. I was about to walk out but John called me. He told me he was on his way there and would help out. I was so scared and thoughts were running through my mind as to what would happen if I did get so sick I couldn't take care of them. When John came in I wasn't scared anymore. It was like I could look at him and everything that worried me went away. It always does. He was so concerned and asked the doctor what was wrong with me. My damned ex's never asked anything like that. They always would ask me after I walked out because they were either outside waiting for me or I would have to drive my self home. I did drive myself home BUT John was right behind me. He made sure I was ok. Afterwards he told me that I scared him. It made me feel good in a weird sort of way. Not that I wanted him scared or anything like that but that feeling of 'my god this man really does love and care for me'. I love and care for John deeply. I called my mom after to tell her what was going on and she told me that she believes I found him and if I ever let him slip from me I was stupid. I will never ever let that happen. He has my heart forever.<3
