Ok so I dropped two of my classes and I'm no longer a full time student. It feels really wierd to me.... 
I'm currently searching for a full time job so I can get the fuck out of my parents house.
They've seriously irritated the fuck out of me since they've been back....
It seems like everything that has gone on in the house lately has been my fault and frankly, I'm fucking sick of it. I'm tired of being blamed for shit I didn't do and its about time I move out. I'm so sick of feeling tied down all the time. Lately I can't even breathe without someone yelling at me for it and its a little hard to take...
I guess overall I haven't been having a good week...
My man told me that I don't love him and that I have no clue what love is....
that was a serious blow straight to my heart. I don't understand why he doesn't think I love him...it hurts me more than anything that he'd say that...it makes me feel like he doesn't even care about me sometimes...and then he goes on to tell me that he loves me more than anything in this world and he told me sorry for what he said even though i was still crying from his comment...it just hurts to think about it.
Sometimes I wonder if he's insecure of himself because he always tells me I could get someone way better than him...but DAMMIT...I DON'T WANT ANYONE ELSE.... and he can't see that...He always thinks I'm going to cheat on him and questions everytime I tell him that I love him...
I mean what I say. I can't help it if I fell in love with him...he is seriously my first love. I don't know how to deal with it. He treats me great and I feel like I can never give enough to him...maybe I'm not the one who deserves him...but it makes me want to cry when I think about losing him...I honestly don't know what I'd do. He's my best friend and I can't help but think about everything we've been through together....he is the only one for me. I really can't see it any other way..
His mom even called the house the other day begging him to come back...but the only way he could come back home was if he dumped me...and he told his mom to go fuck herself. He said that I was the only thing stable in his life right now and that if he left me he wouldn't be able to sleep at night...
It makes me happy but I doubt that he will ever think that I love him...and it really fucking hurts...it hurts so bad i could 
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ok well i hope all is well with you guys....
Girls...i need your help...please come fuck me to relieve some of this tension!
Seriously though....
I'm currently searching for a full time job so I can get the fuck out of my parents house.
They've seriously irritated the fuck out of me since they've been back....
It seems like everything that has gone on in the house lately has been my fault and frankly, I'm fucking sick of it. I'm tired of being blamed for shit I didn't do and its about time I move out. I'm so sick of feeling tied down all the time. Lately I can't even breathe without someone yelling at me for it and its a little hard to take...
I guess overall I haven't been having a good week...
My man told me that I don't love him and that I have no clue what love is....
that was a serious blow straight to my heart. I don't understand why he doesn't think I love him...it hurts me more than anything that he'd say that...it makes me feel like he doesn't even care about me sometimes...and then he goes on to tell me that he loves me more than anything in this world and he told me sorry for what he said even though i was still crying from his comment...it just hurts to think about it.
Sometimes I wonder if he's insecure of himself because he always tells me I could get someone way better than him...but DAMMIT...I DON'T WANT ANYONE ELSE....
and he can't see that...He always thinks I'm going to cheat on him and questions everytime I tell him that I love him...
I mean what I say. I can't help it if I fell in love with him...he is seriously my first love. I don't know how to deal with it. He treats me great and I feel like I can never give enough to him...maybe I'm not the one who deserves him...but it makes me want to cry when I think about losing him...I honestly don't know what I'd do. He's my best friend and I can't help but think about everything we've been through together....he is the only one for me. I really can't see it any other way..
His mom even called the house the other day begging him to come back...but the only way he could come back home was if he dumped me...and he told his mom to go fuck herself. He said that I was the only thing stable in his life right now and that if he left me he wouldn't be able to sleep at night...
It makes me happy but I doubt that he will ever think that I love him...and it really fucking hurts...it hurts so bad i could ....
ok well i hope all is well with you guys....
Girls...i need your help...please come fuck me to relieve some of this tension!
Seriously though.... VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
I wouldn't sweat it too much. Maybe it's like you said & he's a little insecure. Just stick with it.
I'm goin through sorta the same with my parents since I moved back home! I need to get the hell out soon!!