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Gotdam! My heart is pounding! I just got home from the bar...I couldn't stand being there any longer. Shortly after I got there, my dream girl walked in with her new boyfriend. I dated her about 3.5 years ago. There are several theories why the dating ceased, but the important thing is she does not dislike me and I'm infatuated with her *still*. When she walked in, I was munching on some fries. My mouth dropped and I pushed the fries away. I couldn't eat and my brain went dead. I can't even begin to explain how I feel about this girl. One of my friends kept interrupting when I tried to talk to her. Arg. Fucker. Gawd I'm so dumbfounded right now. Anyway...I got a hug and her work/school schedule before I left. I want to go see her tomorrow, but I won't. Too soon. Maybe next week I can drag my ass out of bed before I go to work. Probably not...working 12 hour days is going to kick my ass.

Let's put it this way, I am very cold hearted. I've been through hell with women. But this one...this one reminded me what it was like to love someone again. It hurts so much in such a good way.