Still can't study for this damn Microeconomics test. Going to fail tomorrow, inevitably. FML.
I've had a lot on my mind lately. I guess it started Friday when I was on my break at work. I started thinking about all the things I have going on, good and bad. And then I just really started to miss my grandma. It's been almost nine years since she died, but out of nowhere, I really just felt like I needed her. I need her to be here to see how happy I am and how far I've come. I need her to be here to tell me it's okay when I don't make all the goals I set for myself, that I'll still prevail anyways. And I'm crying right now as I write this because I've forgotten how much I need her until now.
Granted, I really am fortunate for all the great people in my life. It just seems like they all serve different purposes, and I just haven't had someone in my life who's been able to fill my grandma's spot. But I'll get through this. I realize there's no way to get that back, and I'll just have to continue moving forward as though she was actually here.
And as of today, I learned that someone else I really care about is about to be ripped out of my life a little bit. The new boyfriend got in a car accident last night, totaled his car and all. Really sucks that now he's not gonna be able to drive out to see me. I feel really selfish writing that b/c it sucks even more for him that he's not going to be able to go much of anywhere.
And I hate how I'm really bad at comforting people in these types of situations. He just called, and I didn't know what to say to make him feel better. He asked if I still wanted to be his girlfriend now, and of course I do. Yeah, it really blows that we're not gonna be able to see each other as much, but we'll just have to bridge that with more phone calls and more of me driving out there. I really like him, and I hope he at least realizes that enough to know I'm not going to abandon him because of a bad situation he found himself in.
But, I'm gonna go back to eating my animal crackers. They make me feel slightly better about life.
I've had a lot on my mind lately. I guess it started Friday when I was on my break at work. I started thinking about all the things I have going on, good and bad. And then I just really started to miss my grandma. It's been almost nine years since she died, but out of nowhere, I really just felt like I needed her. I need her to be here to see how happy I am and how far I've come. I need her to be here to tell me it's okay when I don't make all the goals I set for myself, that I'll still prevail anyways. And I'm crying right now as I write this because I've forgotten how much I need her until now.
Granted, I really am fortunate for all the great people in my life. It just seems like they all serve different purposes, and I just haven't had someone in my life who's been able to fill my grandma's spot. But I'll get through this. I realize there's no way to get that back, and I'll just have to continue moving forward as though she was actually here.
And as of today, I learned that someone else I really care about is about to be ripped out of my life a little bit. The new boyfriend got in a car accident last night, totaled his car and all. Really sucks that now he's not gonna be able to drive out to see me. I feel really selfish writing that b/c it sucks even more for him that he's not going to be able to go much of anywhere.
And I hate how I'm really bad at comforting people in these types of situations. He just called, and I didn't know what to say to make him feel better. He asked if I still wanted to be his girlfriend now, and of course I do. Yeah, it really blows that we're not gonna be able to see each other as much, but we'll just have to bridge that with more phone calls and more of me driving out there. I really like him, and I hope he at least realizes that enough to know I'm not going to abandon him because of a bad situation he found himself in.
But, I'm gonna go back to eating my animal crackers. They make me feel slightly better about life.
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"candy is dandy liquor is quicker"
i'm not advocating anything though.