I don't understand folks anymore. I can be called on whenever someone needs something, physical or emotional support... or hell even money. But when I am down and in a bad way everyone just tells me to buck up. Take care of your shit, it's not our fault... what the hell people.
I have always been the first to support my community, my circle of friends... but lately I feel like everything I have ever done. Has been over looked or pooh-pooed on.
So and so needed back surgery after a car accident because she didn't have insurance and asked if I could donate one of my pieces of art for their benefit show to raise money for the surgery. So I did, gave the biggest piece I had to offer and framed it with one of my best $300 frames and gave it to the cause. Nothing expected in return and nothing gained but her health.
Such and such got mauled by some drunks after leaving a bar downtown. Broken jaw and teeth needed to be replaced and he didn't have insurance. So I was again asked to submit my art for another benefit show. I did, 6 - 8x10 photos in these pretty awesome little leather bound frames. Nothing expected in return and nothing gained.
So I just had two glands removed because they were hyper active and poisoning me. The surgery was close to $30,000 and I have insurance and it paid for most of it. But I was out of work for a week and had a $1500 deductible to pay up front and my utility bills went unpaid for a month so my water/gas/electric got cut off and I had to pay a surcharge to get it reconnected. When I reach out for help I get, gee that's tough bud but you'll get threw it or wow I am sorry lets go have a beer. What part of I am broke and have bills to pay did you not understand.
Anyway... So Halloween is almost here. This will be the first time in years where I had nothing to do in no way shape or form.