I don’t know if it’s the constant migraines I’ve been having or the panic attacks, but I feel like the kid in the class who tries so hard to participate, but never gets called on, and then is told on their report card to participate more.
I feel like the person who goes out of her way to make sure everyone is okay before leaving an event or a party or whatever and no one ever thanks.
I feel like the person people don’t even think about until they need something from them.
I feel like all the efforts I make to help are misunderstood or backfire.
I know how miserable all my posts must sound lately, but honestly, if I had one positive thing happen for me, I’d be a lot better. I’m just in a really rough patch and pretty sure no one gives two fucks, especially those who could greatly improve my feelings on certain matters.
SG is kind of my safe place to post things like this because I can’t get attacked by certain people who will attack me elsewhere. That is why my “miserable ass” posts all those heavy things here.
I just need support. I need love. I need people to care. I need someone to give me a chance again.
x0x0,
☠️-Sid-☠️