I’m still here and existing

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Hello SGland!

It’s been a bit. Sorry. I’ve been battling this stomach flu thing all week. It’s definitely not the dreaded COVID. I got my first shot for that, and get my second on Friday.

I’ve been dealing with harassment from my ex/his roommate a lot lately. I haven’t even done anything to bother them except for still being alive and the fact that his payments to me had to double this month.

I’ve been compiling their posts and texts to send along to my lawyer. There’s a clause in my divorce decree that my ex cannot harass me or have anyone else harass me on his behalf whether he knows they are doing it or not. I mean, who doesn’t want to wake up to a text that calls you a “legit dumb bitch” and that they “hope [I] die”. It’s nice that they are forcing me to go out of my way and change things in my life I’ve had since forever and call to make police reports. I love interrupting my life for petty people trying to put me down enough thinking I will harm myself or worse so my ex won’t have to pay me the pitiful amount anymore. It’s sad really. I guess they don’t realize how stubborn and strong I am these days.


I am done being walked all over by other people.


I’m looking into ways to protect myself just in case, but I can tell you, I won’t have fun possibly going back to court for things.


Speaking of which, I got called for jury duty for the like 30,000th time since moving here. I’m so over it. I don’t drive, and I’ve noticed it’s harder than ever lately to get a Lyft or an Uber out here, so I don’t know how I’m going to make it to the courthouse. I’ll have to see if my doctor can excuse me for that reason or if I can arrange to potentially get a ride for that day. Who the eff knows what I can do? It’s cray and annoying.


I’m thinking of starting a Patreon again. One part for aspiring models and helping them learn how to pose for their body types. Another part for fans to get a print and other prizes on a set schedule to help me raise money for another project I am doing as well. Also, I will have a section for the cosplay fans.


Anyhow, hopefully things calm down on my end and I get to live a life without interruption and without being harassed, without having to have conflict. I just want to live peacefully without anyone hurting anyone else in my life and all my friends being safe and happy. I mean, one of my favorite people in the world was recently in the ICU with COVID. She’s better and home now. I hope I get the opportunity to fly back East in the not to distant future to give her a big hug.


At least I’ve been getting out of the house with a friend lately. That’s been nice. I just really miss having someone to watch movies and cuddle with on the couch... Maybe someday I will have a person like that again, only this time the person will actually love me for me, not use me or be harmful either mentally or worse. I’m fearing that meaningful romantic relationships aren’t going be in the cards for my future... I am not that lucky.

Hope you all have a wonderful week.

Maybe someday my updates will be all happy again.

Thanks for the read!

x0x0,

☠️-Sid-☠️

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irabrai:
Honestly wish that things would improve for you.
babel:
Of course you are not too old @sid

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