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Hello lovely people!

I've been noticing that I've been getting a whole slew of new followers lately! Thank you to those of you who have just recently "discovered" or decided to follow me here on SuicideGirls. I'm not sure what prompted you to follow me, but I'd love it, especially the newer followers, if you could tell me how you found me and why you've decided to take a journey with my weird mind in blog postings, etc.

Was I shared somewhere recently that I don't know about? I mean, that would be spectacular! I'm always happy to do my best to represent the SuicideGirls brand, even when it doesn't get me very far. Seriously, I really want to know what led you to my page! Please post a comment about it!

I've been a model here for 13 years, (14th anniversary of my first set going live is on January 27th) and I never wished to stop. There's been some drama here and there where people, for some reason, take my posts in a negative way, especially when they ask for help, and I'm trying to be honest and informative. I apparently have a huge reputation for being a "bitch" because sometimes there are things I'd rather not sugarcoat, especially if the person is rude in the first place, and because of my blunt, but true, answers can be a bit snide and sarcastic, I'm apparently an "asshole" for it, yet the other person who said the even shittier things than I said doesn't get so much as a slap on the wrist for starting the whole thing in the first place, and they always play the victim that the big mean Sid Suicide started a fight with. I mean, I guess that, yeah, when taken out of context, it sounds like I'm a royal twat, but I'm not like that, honestly. Most people will tell you that I am the most genuine, kind, and helpful person (with a tad mix of Social Anxiety Disorder and a shy awkwardness in there) they've met. What they all say:

I have this tendency to kind of trying to stay out of the way of everyone, especially when I don't know the people around me very well. I guess that can be seen as stuck up because of that, but really, I'm just waiting to be introduced into the fold so I can stop feeling left out so much. At this point, my anxiety levels are super high, and I am only fine with talking to people I'll most likely never see again... And this is what I'm thinking pretty much all the time:

But yeah, I am a strange little girl in the long run who loves comics and cosplaying and making new friends. I seem to only attract fair weather friends who only talk to me when they want something from me (i.e. a girl I thought I was best friends with was using me for the "perks", I apparently come with, I guess it's because I know someone considered important to them), and I don't want those kinds of friendships. I want people who will take me as who I am. I'm a short, older than I look, pink mowhawked, disabled (I have two types of Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome), and very anxious about who I let into my life now. I'm one of those people who remembers something they got in trouble for decades ago and agonize about it to this day.

I'm trying to conquer the fears I have so I can do the things I really want to do; like cam on MFC (no nudity, I reserve that for this site only), and create a nerdy youtube channel.

I guess that leads into the second question I'm asking you; what else would you SGs, Hopefuls, and members like to know about me?

One thing I always say is that you can never get a great grasp on someone's personality, unless you see the things on their wish lists. Haha! So show me your's! Introduce yourself! I'm really excited to have new followers and the possibility of making new friends!

And then there's this. This is a photo of me holding the concept drawing of me for a comic book called "Barbarians", which my wonderful artist friend, Nate Hamel is drawing (and the comic as a whole has contributors from all over the world, and takes place in a world where the protagonists and main characters are all women. More specifically, all women he knows.) Thanks to Nate, I'm going to get to kill dinosaurs (remember this is a *fictional* world) and slay giant monsters with a sword taller than I am!

Here's the actual art up close! (I think I'm getting tattoos too, but I don't know)

And I know I've shared this on here before, but I wanted to tell you all that my character will be in the next issue (October's)! I'll put up a link to Nate's Page. which will have the most current books, art, and such! Also, he's going to draw up some pieces of me and we'll probably make prints as well, and the best part is, they will be exclusively available to my amazing followers! So keep an eye out for my comic debut, and another eye out to for when my prints come out, and how you can get one, as well as me getting a proper link to Nate's awesome art.

Big things are happening, and I'm enjoying them!

But for now, I will live in a world that sometimes makes me feel like the minion in this gif:

Thanks for reading, and thanks to my new followers for finding me here and deciding I'm worthy to be followed, and of course, thank you to the all those who have been following my stupid/annoying/old face for years, some since the beginning! 😘

X0X0,

☠️-Sid-☠️

P.S. in 30 days, there's a big huge deal of an anniversary happening, but we are kind of broke and want to do *something* special for it. We've tossed the idea of going to LA and have @missy renew some very special promises for us, considering she was party to something similar recently... If @missy would grant us her presence, we can start some planning... However, I've no idea where we'd do this thing, and it's not like we'd invite a whole lot of people to it. We just want to do something fun...

Also, I am aware that this in no way has anything to do with any of the "homework" subjects, but @rambo & and tagged for the 3rd time @missy, if you deem this front-page worthy, by all means, you have my permission. 😸