June 13th. Never really a good day for me since my 19th birthday. That day, my father passed away, partially from Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, which I also have. I'm kind of scared of getting older, because that is one more year toward the inevitable... which really can be any day, but that's the reality for all life.
At least I'm waiting until the 15th to go skydiving! Yep, I am going to jump out of a plane for the first time... Obviously a tandem jump. It would be hilarious if my tattooist ends up being there to jump or ends up being my tandem, but I think he goes north of where I am going. I'm jumping over this:
This is the Royal Gorge. It one of the highest suspension bridges in the world (built in the early 1900's, I think). I took the above photos when we went the last time, years ago and bungie jumped off the cliff side. Underneath the canyon is the Arizona river. It's one of the most brutal places to whitewater raft in the country, but only during the right season and in the right conditions. I'd be lying if I were to say I'd totally raft there, but the water is so unpredictable, and a lot of inexperienced people, unfortunately, drown or need to be saved.
Anyway, I was flying home from Alaska a week ago today. @trevor and I were there for his kids' high school graduation. He kept joking about how because one graduated early, we got a twofer and don't have to go back next year. While there, he bought me a beautiful Alexandrite, which is my birthstone, and super rare... Sadly, when sizing it, the jeweler loosened some prongs, and one of the little side diamonds fell out, and this happened literally right when we got home. Luckily, I found the side diamond, in my purse, and we took it to get fixed the other day, and it was done today.
Alexandrite changes color in different light levels, so here are some of the photos of my beauty (the one on the top is the Alexandrite, the one underneath is a ruby, and the one on my pinkie finger is another Alexandrite, but one that isn't worth as much as the other. The tiny one was actually my first one. But here's the awesome early birthday gift my amazing husband got me (trying to show its color changes):
It turns from green to red depending on the light.
Anyhow, if you would like to send me a birthday gift (please don't feel obligated), here is a wish list link (most of it is items I need for cosplays, and some are just dreams): Wishes
And for those who would like to know (Colorado friends, etc), I will NOT be having any sort of celebration. I try to plan something every year, but everyone seems to be too busy for me.
And right now, I have some stupid drama going on... Nothing I did wrong, but someone I called a friend flipped out on me for me sending him a link in a private Facebook group to help him with a question he had. He's being a horrible person about it, and now I'm finding out that he's pulled the same sort of shit on other people. I was feeding him exclusive and unannounced news about comic stuff, especially things I'm told I can release early from a company I have a partnership with. There's also the matter of lies he told me, like paying me, and not giving me credit for my content, acting like it was all his intel. He thinks he's holier than thou, and has never been invited to a major comic con... I get invited to cons based on my cosplays alone. Ones across the country... Guess who isn't getting perks from me anymore? Especially since he was using me for that. It wouldn't be June or my birthday with out some stupid asshole drama queen attacking me.
And people wonder why I hate June and my birthday. It's always horrible. I joke that I lose so many friends in the month of June so they don't feel obligated to go to any celebration with me or get me even a tiny gift, but the more I joke about that, the more I feel like it's true...
Well, there's not much else to do or say. Hopefully I will make it to the Colorado Renaissance Festival this weekend without drama or sleeping through an entire day, because I seem to not be able to get out of bed most days anymore. Maybe it's the pain, maybe it's the depression, maybe it's just my body shutting down since nothing seems to be positive for me anymore. I'm trying to keep an open mind, and positivity, but it's hard when your body, mind, soul, and supposed friends keep letting me down. I don't know where this urge to just sleep and never wake up is coming from. Good news is, we have our insurance fixed finally, it only took 7 months...
X0X0,
☠️-Sid-☠️
P.S. Here are some random photos from Alaska:
