hello everyone...hope you all had a good thanksgiving. mine was the norm....lil familly dinner..and thats about it. couple things...
1) do most of you out there have a bunch of different groups of friends? I seriouselly have like 4 main groups of friends that I hang out with reguarlly. And it is hard to find some free time!!!!!! what do you all do about this??
2) Shannon's situation is finally taking its toll on me. Yes we all know that I am in love with her....but it is just getting to be too much. The money is spend on her could be saved or put to use in other ways.....but for the last 5 months...I have been buying her cigaretts...clothes....sewing materials...food....hygeine materials...gas to get up there...tolls to get up there....I have over 15,000 miles on my new car already!!!!...getting pictures developed....it is just adding up very very fast. I totaled it up and I have spent over $2000 on her since july....doesnt seem like a lot...but you have to realize that i havent seen her for more than a two hour period...once every two weeks...since july!!! If she was here with me..I could understand that...but not haing her here...and spending all the $...is killing me. Why do I do it? Im a nice guy and all..and i do really love her....but is this really going to work out in the end??? i do not know the answer to that........
3) im not getting into the xmas spirit at all......i have plenty of friends...yet im still lonely.
1) do most of you out there have a bunch of different groups of friends? I seriouselly have like 4 main groups of friends that I hang out with reguarlly. And it is hard to find some free time!!!!!! what do you all do about this??
2) Shannon's situation is finally taking its toll on me. Yes we all know that I am in love with her....but it is just getting to be too much. The money is spend on her could be saved or put to use in other ways.....but for the last 5 months...I have been buying her cigaretts...clothes....sewing materials...food....hygeine materials...gas to get up there...tolls to get up there....I have over 15,000 miles on my new car already!!!!...getting pictures developed....it is just adding up very very fast. I totaled it up and I have spent over $2000 on her since july....doesnt seem like a lot...but you have to realize that i havent seen her for more than a two hour period...once every two weeks...since july!!! If she was here with me..I could understand that...but not haing her here...and spending all the $...is killing me. Why do I do it? Im a nice guy and all..and i do really love her....but is this really going to work out in the end??? i do not know the answer to that........
3) im not getting into the xmas spirit at all......i have plenty of friends...yet im still lonely.
you'll get through it my friend. i know its hard
2.if it's meant to be, it will be, and maybe it's not meant to be until she's got herself a little more together...Maybe give her some time to prove to herself that she can be completely responsible and in control of her life, which can be more empowering and beneficial to her than anything you're providing to her now. it'll probably also make you feel a lot better, because if it all goes well, you won't have so many doubts about whether she's worthy of your trust again or not. It's quite a vulnerable situation you've got there...I know i've witnessed some crazy soap-opera-ish relationship disasters since moving to B-more, watching what happened when some friends got involved with addicts/exaddicts. But there have been success stories, also, so, you'll never know till it happens, rendering all of this opinion pretty much useless in the end....damn..
3. xmas is stupid, except for economic success or whatever. and christmas music in public should be limited to 2 days prior the actual date cause that shits annoying.