sickgirl78

I'm breaking apart. I can feel it physically breaking me. I am so unprepared for the serious detour my life is taking. it was never supposed to be like this. he promised to love me forever. he took the vows. how can this be happening. I don't even know what to do, what to say, where to go. this pain is incredible. it's all consuming. it is overwhelming. I can't stop shaking, when does it stop, will it ever stop? how do you accept the fact that they don't feel what you felt to be so real? that they haven't felt it? that it was all lies. that they won't/can't/don't want to try. you just aren't worth it. how long can I hold it together, pretend that I'm strong enough for this, that I'll be ok? how do you let go of your life?