siara

i am defiently going insane at the moment.. the last two weeks have been one of the most insane times of my life.. both work and everything wise...?!?!? ................ why is sex so fucked up and confusing?!?!...who were the ones that conditioned us to think like this, i am sure its not supposed to be like this......... anyway.......


The next 10 days are going to be crazy!! I have to make sure everything is ready for the photos for the Beserk Clothing range II catalogue, which is now 1 day away, i will be in some of the photos along with the lurvely .. sonni, kate and terese!! so I have to work out how I want the makeup, all of the outfits, find a location (there is an abandoned mental institution just near where I live, so I want to find out about taking the photos there!!), I also have to get my hair done, which as always, i don't know what to do with.. ?!? I am going to get wasted tomorrow and just hack into it, I will post some pics soon of how it turned out!! Haha.. it is going to be fun! i hope i don't fuck it up.. i don't really know how to cut hair?!?! ........ then after the photos are taken, design the catalogue in 2 days and get it to the printers, organize all the advertising, sort out the new website and webstore, plus work out the online catalogue, design outfits for three fashion award competitions that are coming up, make thousands of sticker packs/badges and.......................................i can't even remember all the things!!!!!!!!!!.. so yeah i am real busy at the moment!!!!!!.. ok, yes you get the picture, i will bore you no longer with all my work talking.......

HEADQUARTERS.................. This is one of the new decline skirt designs........speechless evil..




........I am having to deal with way too much crazy stuff in my life!?!?
Seriously I am sure sex has been programmed in everyone to destroy out lives and keep us oppressed!.. Does everyone have relationship sex issues??! How the fuck do you just stay with one person and be happy anyways?!? unless you want to live in denial i guess.. or something.. i don't know what I am going on about.?!!!!!!!.. do I always go on about this?!? i just know that love is so different to sex and i don't see why the two things have been put together?! I have never been to university or anything, i fucking hate studying and i fuckin hated school... but anyway.. I would LOVE to study the history of sexuality in humans, and all the influences from the religions over the centuries... that movie Kinsey (is that right?) about the study of sex was so interesting... are there any universitys in the world that would have such a course!?!?...

i think i have turned into an insane crazy violent grrl at the moment.. i always seem to want to get into fights?!? is that normal? verbal and physical...... things are weird in my life at the moment.............



I am prone to late night insane crazy psyotic attacks at the moment:?!? A couple of nights a week I will scream, or abuse cam in my sleep, and have full freakouts.....
The other night I was screaming at the top of my lungs that they were killing the puppies.. then I went to my sock drawer which was open right next to my bed and I grabbed all the socks in my arms, that were rolled up in balls and screamed to look at all the dead puppies... then I threw them down, jumped off the bed and ran and hid behind it and started screaming and crying hysterically saying that all the puppies were dead.... this is when I remember waking up to Cam telling me there were no puppies and not to worry.. then i went back to sleep...




how hot is this statue of Rei? ................ I love rei anayami, looking around I am scared by how many pictures I have of her on my wall!!.. haha.. I really should have gotten a Rei tattoo..! but I cant get another one now, otherwise I would have three manga girls and nothing else.?!? Hmmmm .. I will look obsessed or something.. not that I am or anything, but does anyone know of any good hentai that is like cool devices?!? Haha....... but no really give me suggestions!!


I have such an obsession with To do lists.. I normally have about 5 going at once.. then I condense them onto one list and them make another 5 or so.. it is crazy.. but is the only way I can get things done.... i defiently couldnt live without my to do list..



I bought a new Little Apple Dollsll!! http://littleappledolls.co.uk/ .. she is cool.. I fucking love Little Apple Dolls there is the most beautiful double box set that I want to get?!? Not that I should be spending any money really, because I am currently ridiculously broke because of Beserk....... but, well.. I want her and I always get what I want.. hahah..... I think it is an only child thing.........!





Stormy left ........... stormy has totally the most perfect tits........ bye stormy

I hope everyone is doin well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and again sorry i haven't written back to anyone!!.. but please write to me and I will write back when I get my life back I promise!!!!!!! .......



SIARA
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