siara

Well hello again...... *mwah* to all you lurvely sg people!!!!!! .... i seem to be updating on here almost monthly now...... ... i am so slack... I am been busy lately organising the second manufacturing run of the first Beserk Clothing range.. the first run totally sold out!! Which is soo excellent and such a relief that people actually like my stuff! .. I finished taking all the orders from the shops for this run and I now have 18 shops around Australia as stockists and am having shops approach me now to sell my stuff.. so things are good! .. I have been trying to design the next range which has been hard.. no creative inspiration at the moment... hmmmmmm... how to get inspiration??!! ..please help me......

I went and saw ISIS last week and they were soo good I wasnt sure what they would be like live but they were fucking amazing defiantly one of the best shows I have been to in ages!!!!!!!!!! You defiently have to check them out if they play near you!!!

5 GOOD things :::::
--- I got a new mobile phone..finally!!... its a sexy black Vodaphone V60.. I hope this one works.. I am seriously jinxed with phones.. I either lose them x2, spill alcohol on them then they are fucked, buy ones that have bad reception or when I buy them they are broken and i have to wait for a replacement (this phone)... so after about 6 phones over the past 3 years hopefully this one will be good.. its fuckin sexy and has a camera and internet and everything and I am scared that i am excited by a mobile phone.....
--- I am going to Japan in three months..... it is soo going to rule... I bought the Japan lonely planet guide yesterday and I have started reading it cause i like to know as much about a country before i go, although really I just need a shopping guide then I will be fine.. cause that is mainly what i am planning on doing... although the country is soo beautiful that i just want to see everything...
--- I saw the movie The House of Flying Daggers and it is soo good.. the girl in it is so fucking cute and I soo want to kiss her and I dont normally find Japanese guys attractive but I have to say the main guy is also fucking sexy...
--- i have quit eating sugar.. i have now gone two weeks without eating anything that obviously contains sugar!! and that is fucking good for me cause i normally live on junk food.. i know that i am still eating it in some things cause sugar is in almost everything but i am avoiding everything that i can.. figure i eat too much and i think it messes with me...
--- my new set got accepted!! ...wonder how long it will take to go up... hmmm let me see.. there are now 560 girls approx. and there are 356 days in the year (um..is that right?!)... plus new girls going up all the time to add to that amount.. hmmm so maybe it will go up in a couple of years.. oh well

these were taken when i took the new set...


this is my jim beam promo photo.. haha... bourbon = \\m/

6 BAD things ::::: there is always more bad than good..
---- i can't eat sugar.. i want chocolate and i feel depressed..
---- I still havent found a place to live... I need to find some type of warehouse/office/sleeping arrangement situation.. close to the city and it has to be nice and within my price range.. I sooo need to move.. but there are so many fucking people looking for a place at the moment that as soon as anywhere good is available it is gone within the day.. damn it..
--- i cant decide what colour to have my hair... i keep changing it then bleaching the colour out.. I have bleached the red out of it already after three weeks cause it was pissing me off cause I had regrowth and I hate regrowth.. maybe I will go black.. I cant decide.. maybe I should go back to my natural hair colour of red.. but I havent been my natural colour for years and i hate natural coloured hair..
---- I need to create new designs for my label Beserk Clothing and I am totally uninspired..........
---- I need a new profile picture and I look like shit... damn it I hate myself today... I dont know why.. life is too hard.......
---- I am sexually repressed.. apparently... sex in general is really fucked.. I am so sick of all the emotional jealousy and everything that goes along with it.. I want to become a hermit and live in the hills (what is the female equilavent to hermit anyways?)... i think i will become a born again virgin.. how does that work? i have severe jealousy problems which apparently stem from my poor self esteem... i want to live in a society where my point of living is to survive not to fucking just exist.. .............blahblahblah... thousands of people just died unexpectedly and lost their loved ones and their entire livelihood and i care about the most insignificant shit.. but i can't help it.. why??

ok... on to a more lighter note...

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~~ CHILDREN OF THE SWARM ~~
I am helping organise a hardcore/metal/punk festival in Brisbane @ RNA Showgrounds on April 2nd 2005 --- Strike Anywhere is headlining plus 24 other bands from around Australia.. is going to be huge!!! Beserk Clothing will be on sale plus giveaways and you have to come!!

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Well i am going to go now and be emo... haha.. no really this non-sugar thing is fucking with me and making me all depressed... maybe i just need a good hard fuck.. or maybe that is the stem of all my problems!!!!!!
anyways....... have a most excellent night!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *MWAH*



SIARA
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