siara

Hello!!! ... well I had to update today.. just so i can have 6.6.6 written on my page...... m/

Well the set that I sent in a month or so ago was rejected....... not sure why.. the light wasnt good enough or something.. the only colours in the pictures were pretty much red/black/white which made all the lighting on the pics all weird and hard to work with in photoshop........ so no new sets for me .. but I can post some pics on here now.... so here is me nekkid....................











The entire set is in my pictures in the rejected set folder if you want to check them out... so now I really have to get around to doing another set soon!.. I have some ideas and just have to try to make them happen now........ but it will probably take me another year to get around to doing another one...



I am currently addicted to Taro Milk Tea with Pearls........ yum!!! Fuck it rules...... I want some now!!! I tried to buy some today but the place was closed..which made me sad..
Taro Milk Tea = <3





The new Mini Winter Range for Beserk Clothing is almost finished...!! Finally! i am a week past my deadline, due to no fault of my own.. which is the most annoying part when there is absolutely nothing i can do about it!!! ... but I am picking up all the spy jackets and constraint skirts on Friday.. I then just have to print up the skirts and then everything will be ready to send out next Monday to the shops!!.. ... I hope it all sells.. !!
You can see a preview of my range here...
Or I am still having a huge SALE on everything in my
Beserk Webstore - with up to 50% OFF!!! So check it out!!!





Warning :: depressed ranting ahead .............

Well I have defiently been going through the most fucked up time of my life over the past month.. as well as being flat out with Beserk, I spent a week in bed with the worst cough I have ever had, plus dealing with some fucked up relationship stuff that I havent ever had to face before.... and which I always promised myself i would never go through, which makes it worse and has made me realise you can never trust guys when it comes to sex.. even when you think you can... guys love their cock more than anything else.. lol...
So once again made me realise how you can trust no-one.... and relationships are just lies.. So I destroyed myself for a few weeks over what someone else did.. which was pointless.. not sure why it effects me as it was nothing to do with me.. i guess it is just hard to not feel like you failed.. but on the positive side.. I now hold 2 x get of jail free cards... lol... plus there are now going to be big changes...

I actually went to the doctors the other week and asked about anti-depressants... he gave me a trial pack of Zoloft.... which has been sitting on my table unopened ever since.. :surrreal: I have always been extremely anti anti-depressants.. but I really wonder if they would help me at the moment.... somedays I dont want to get out of bed and I am getting more and more negative and secluded by the week ... keep thinking everyday I should try it.. argh..... i would love to hear anyones thoughs on anti-depressants.. experiences etc.. I have actually been feeling better the last few days and more positive about everything which is good!

END RANT.. sorry ..




I have black hair now!!... hmmm not sure for how long though....... i miss red...

So back to beserk land for me... I am working on the new website so it will be ready for when the new range hits the stores!!.. kisses to y'all!!!


SIARA
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