I'd like to say, I wish I could use my journal the way Venice does, she just puts everything out there and it's wonderful for me because I can keep up with her life that way, even though she only lives a few blocks away. Reading her updates is one of my favorite things to do when I sit down at my computer.
I really hate it when you have the kind of fights with someone where no one wins. There is this small party at Venice's tonight, and I really wanted my boyfriend to come with me, really just so I can spend time with him but still get to have fun at Venice's house, which I love. And at first I asked him and he said no, then I found out he might be leaving for the weekend tomorrow which would mean that if he didn't come I wouldn't get to see him for a few days. He didn't want to come because new people make him nervous, even though Venice's family is about the nicest family anyone could ever hope to meet, and he's always afraid that they don't want him there and won't like him. I've tried to explain many times that because he is in my life and is my boyfriend that we sort of come as a pair, and no one, whether it is a party or family event or whatever, is going to be surprised if I bring him, it's usually expected. So he's about to leave and I get a little irritated that he doesn't really seem to care that much that he won't get to see me, and he can see that I'm a little upset, so he's says "OK, I'll be there, if you want me to go, I'll go."
So then neither of you end up getting what you really want, because I don't want him to go just because I made him feel guilty, but he's trying to give me what I want by going and by the end none of it matters anymore and you just want to forget you brought it up in the first place. And then he leaves for work and I won't see him until I go to pick him up at 1 o'clock in the morning. And now I feel bad because I guilted him into going when all I really wanted to do was spend time with him.
He just called me before he left for work just to let me know that he's not going away for the weekend, yay! And we have some time off together so we're going to plan something special. He seemed in a much better mood, I should know not to talk about anything with him until he's been awake for at least two hours.
I really hate it when you have the kind of fights with someone where no one wins. There is this small party at Venice's tonight, and I really wanted my boyfriend to come with me, really just so I can spend time with him but still get to have fun at Venice's house, which I love. And at first I asked him and he said no, then I found out he might be leaving for the weekend tomorrow which would mean that if he didn't come I wouldn't get to see him for a few days. He didn't want to come because new people make him nervous, even though Venice's family is about the nicest family anyone could ever hope to meet, and he's always afraid that they don't want him there and won't like him. I've tried to explain many times that because he is in my life and is my boyfriend that we sort of come as a pair, and no one, whether it is a party or family event or whatever, is going to be surprised if I bring him, it's usually expected. So he's about to leave and I get a little irritated that he doesn't really seem to care that much that he won't get to see me, and he can see that I'm a little upset, so he's says "OK, I'll be there, if you want me to go, I'll go."
So then neither of you end up getting what you really want, because I don't want him to go just because I made him feel guilty, but he's trying to give me what I want by going and by the end none of it matters anymore and you just want to forget you brought it up in the first place. And then he leaves for work and I won't see him until I go to pick him up at 1 o'clock in the morning. And now I feel bad because I guilted him into going when all I really wanted to do was spend time with him.
He just called me before he left for work just to let me know that he's not going away for the weekend, yay! And we have some time off together so we're going to plan something special. He seemed in a much better mood, I should know not to talk about anything with him until he's been awake for at least two hours.
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