sian_the_zombie

hey every1
hope ur all okay!!

so i thought id write an extra long blog in here today about allsorts of stuff as im sat at my old family home which is in the middle of the countryside in a random little village with only like 100 people in!! its so boring there is like nothing here and the nearest town is like 30 minutes away! so thats sucks bigtime!im on my sisters laptop which wont work in chat cuz it wont let me type and it doesnt have a cam so that sucks

its so weird being back here and like my whole family being here. im gonna b very honest .. i dont really miss being here at all.. it just doesnt feel like home anymore. it feels cold and not very welcoming which is a bit weird considering i have lived here all the time up until 6 months ago!! but my flat im in now feels so much nicer and more homely. so yeh im happy being in my nice flat in the middle of the city with everything around me


just recently ive been on a bit of a downer i mean ive suffered seriously from manic depression with no way out it seemed. i mean my supposed friends all decided to forget about asking me to go out with them cuz i could never get a sitter!! so yeh i dont see them anymore at all... ive made new friends so often but they all do the same thing and ditch me my only one real friend lives where i am staying at the moment, and shes busy with her fiance arranging her wedding and getting ready for her baby which is due on millies bday next year haha.;. so im not gonna see her this weekend which sucks a little but nevermind .. ill see her some other time i guess. anyways as i was saying.. yeh all the friends i seem to have made in gloucester have ditched me when i cant go out and i think i need friends to get me through this.. thanks to so many people on sg for giving me advice and helping me through alot of things.. i mean ive not known 0rocketboy0 for long but hes been a super good friend and helped me through alot just recently .. hes so lovely and has a super cool accent! but all of u have had ur input into helping me out alot in the past few weeks .. even if its just by making me smile or laugh. i love you all

so woot.. january next year will be freaking awesome. ireland for a Eu Sg meet which will be so cool,
lavenderrr ,0rocketboy0 ,DexV33 r 3 of the people i know are defo going which will be cool anyways i cant wait to meet all of them i get on with them pretty well so wooooooo but yeh its one thing im lookin forward to which is always a good thing when u feel how i do atm!!! look to the future

anyways probably had enough of my rambling on and i dont know how many of u will have actually read this to the end but thanks for taking the time to read my nonsense!!!!!!

love you all .. sian

p.s extra love to. renji, bistro, htr, quirky, XxclandestinexX