I must really be feeling the ups and downs of pregnancy. I'm not content with anything that is going on in my life right now. I can't work so I am stuck in the house all day; it's driving me f*ing crazy. My boyfriend is upset with me for applying to be a suicide girl. Hmm, what else could go wrong? I think I've come to a realization; I don't need a man to be happy. I think I would be much happier living on my own with my two children. Although taking care of them wouldn't be easy, I wouldn't have to answer to anyone. I REALLY don't deal well with authority. At the same time, I don't want to rush out and get a place of my own for fear that I am only so down because of my emotional roller coaster. Then again, I may start pulling my hair out soon!