shugr

So, as I noticed some saw - yesterday was the big 25 for me. Thnx to those who wished me a Happy BDay, though it ended up being a very shitty day due to lack of money, which meant - i didn't get the ONE thing I asked for... my tattoo - but that wasn't the only thing that sucked. All my friends who were supposed to chill with me had either gone to Ohio for a car, had no babysitter or just forgot. I'm one of those people who, when i have something special coming, I let everyone know - so how could one possibly forget?? I had a total of 4 people talk to me on IM yesterday, 2 out of those 4 forgot. It feels great... but it wasn't just that making me upset. I was just so bummed all day thinking about my life and where I have gone and what I have done, and honestly I really got upset. I'm getting too old too quickly and I need to become a different person. I'm thinking about giving up drinking and partying by New Years, so it gives me time to let those who love hanging with me time to deal, haha. I need to settle down, get a career that I am going to stick with. Make money, and actually becoming something I never was before. Life is depressing for me, it's so unfair.

Oh well, enough of my bitching. I am supposed to be getting my ink NEXT thursday, and if it doesn't work out this time, then I am going to say fuck it, its a sign... lol. Welp, this was a short and not so sweet blog cause I haven't written in a few days. Thnx again to those who said happy bday. Much love <3