shpeecialz

Wrote this on my "welcome guide" I was given in jail haha. Very rough but whatever it helped me vent on a lot of shit without having to scream at people

Relapsensational
subconscious soul-less thought-less control
the more i relapse the deeper the hole
overcompensation always to the extreme
anxiously awaiting the next best thing

Compromise sanity in exchange for nothing
and while seeking serenity in recklessness
these nightmares become my reality
waking up not as easy as it seemed

On this new roll
New possibilities, new goals
But I walk the other direction
Not ready to give up
Need to escape some more
Still have tricks in this bag
junkie traits to show

Each day harder to break away
The farther I travel
The less you'll have to say.