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shpeecialz

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Tuesday Apr 06, 2010

Apr 6, 2010
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Ok... my newest Spoken Word after 20 re-runs.... can't wait to run it over some beatz for ya'll to hear smile

Cant move again Im frozen Im dead
Thought it was gone
Ran it out of my head
Two fuckin songs in a row
Lost from memory bout a decade or so
Angry, tense tears beginning to flow

Pushing the Daddys never there
Instantly locked in this frozen stare
Irrational thoughts, ideas, notions
Silencing truth, worry, and care.

Yet 20 years later here I lye
Begging for mercy a better way to die
All the while curious, wondering why?
I thought tough bitches didnt cry

(will write a verse or two to create a connection)

HOOK 1x

*Let me lead you on into this poets next chapter
and while my story continues on
Ill guarantee warm laughter
with suicide-stained emotions
lingerin months, weeks, days after*

So now shes walking through the door
shit-eating grin coverin her face
And thats all it took, youre done shes in
Fucked situation and a wasted disgrace

..Sittin u down at the table
Settin a comfortable place.

With unjustifiable gratification
And uncontrollable salivation
Youd kill for just one tiny taste and
Obsession bred for pure motivation
Attaining the goal of pure penetration

HOOK 2x

Sitting naked on the bed
Staring at nothing for hours on end
Asking you frantically how I got here
or if this nightmare will ever end?

Now this agonizing emotional baggage?
simply think of it as a care package
Or a door-prize if you will, to some
Well Chuck lets tell her what shes won?



A face still overrun with tears
10 unforgettable yet repressed years
Reasons I still cant look in the mirror
Without anticipation grabbing me, screaming.
Why the fuck am I still here?






"LIfE is just a lie with an f in it... and death is definite"

-Sage Francis

Thanks for listening!

confused shpeecialz confused

shpeecials@yahoo.com

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