So I've battled Depression all my life , From self hate and Harm to thoughts of suicide dancing through my Head ....Constantly. Since sometime last year I've been experiencing extraordinary mood swings from crying for no reason to violent act's of Rage , seeing and hearing things that are not there , People catch me talking to my self ...but I don't realize I'm doing it . I'm rarely Happy anymore and most of the time I'm just putting on an act for the benefit of my friends and family. I hid this from everyone for so long and it was just eating me alive inside and making things exponentially WORSE ! I Just recently admitted this to my wife after testing confirmed positive for BPD with BI Polar disorder. I hid it because, I did not think anyone would understand or even believe me . Now I'm actively seeking help and hope to get this under control SOON . I've had "bad" days every day thus far this week , but just talking to my wife about it and having her understand was like an elephant lifted off my chest . The whole point of this is if your reading through...and I hope you are , is don't keep feelings of depression bottled up or anything you may believe is mentally wrong with you ...GET HELP BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE!
