A few months ago I was invited as a plus one to someone's wedding reception on Halloween. It's suppose to be a masquerade thing, which is cool. Now I was invited by my ex and because we are still friends and she has no one else to go with I said yea I'd go. Now for the interesting part. We met up yesterday thursday in order to look for masquerade masks for saturday. We got what we wanted and as we were waiting for the train home she said she wanted to talk. She basically told me how she was jealous of the new girl I am with. She said everyone she was talking to is now talking to other people, and one guy is even engaged. She told me how she was lonely and she hates it.
A part of me internally was like woah she's lonely and jealous. I felt bad for her but then another part of me was like THATS WHAT SHE GETS BE JEALOUS! I DONT CARE IF YOU HATE BEING SINGLE. YOU LEFT ME FOR ANOTHER MAN! I WAS SINGLE FOR A YEAR WITHOUT YOU. FUCK YOU!
I felt bad for having those kind of thoughts. She saw my snapchats of my significant other and I hanging out having fun. When she told me how she felt when seeing them I again felt bad for her but then I had mocking thoughts in my mind laughing at her pain. I did my best to console her but I know I didnt help.
I want to be there as a friend and support her, but its hard when shes pretty anti-social. So she doesnt have that many friends.