shokmylife

I have a cellphone now. Cool

Nocturnal Boy

2:23AM We sit in my room curtains drawn over curtains. Clothes belonging to either one of us lay on the floor amongst a great amount of discarded matrerial from previous nights. I am pretty sure that most of the articles don't belong to either one of us.
So, I begin to wonder if I am even in...
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Uh, My grandmother passed away the Sunday before last.
I missed it.
She gave me my grandfather's cowboy boots.
He passed away when I was 10.
Last week.
Was hard and amazing and terrible and nice.
I kinda feel like being locked away for awhile, but then I don't

Can anyone tell me why I cannot sleep at night?
Is it my conscience?
Is it an emptiness?
I make up stories in my head while I'm half asleep, they are way more interesting that way. Because I never know where they are going and they kind of just do what they want.

While out of town this weekend I spent nearly ever penny I...
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I smell like cigarettes.

Changeing kittie litter and playing games....beer.

I wish I didn't smell like cigarettes.

I got married tonite too.

I was pretty wasted last night.
Now, I play video games.

I'm back.

Be prepared.

for nothingness.

fuck this I spent money I shouldn't have hahaahhahahahahahha.

I'm back.

I've fallen.

When a girl drips beer from her mouth into her panties you know that is the kind of girl thats in a guy's like me dream.

New Records: Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds. Lords of the New Church.

Thank you Laureny for a wonderful weekend of Dolls, Swimming, and Nakedness. Oh and for almost giving me a heart attack through something thats...
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Hi lauren.

I want to go swimming.

I like swimming with waterfalls.

We should also do some nose dives.

Hint.

Hint.

I love my bff.
She brings me joy in my rehab days.
Hah. Days.
I had my last day of my first program today.
Relapses: 4
Status: Duh
Now I'm going to celebrate my last day of rehab.

I love Laureny. She gives me gifts. I give her gifts. It's like Christmas all year long(including the snow). Crazy summer once again. The heat drives me crazy. Tomorrow I find out what sort of rehabilation program is for me. Clean me up pop's so I can shoot myself down again.