shoegal

hmm. i should take out "my best friend" from the five items that i can't live without list...because i dont have one anymore.
i thought i was okay with that, but i'm not. i miss him. and...there's nothing to do about it.
missing him is making everything else shitty in my life, heh, i dont think i like my other friends anymore. at least not the ones that are here in tallahassee, well besides hala, but she is a universal friend, not a tallahassee friend.
ever since i came back from jacksonville things have sucked, and yes they sucked while i was in jax, but it was better somehow.
heh, i feel so negative right now, it just seems like i shouldn't talk to anyone or say anything because it won't be nice.
i should have picked a major were i could become a social hermit in my job, but no, i had do fashion design where i have to network and kiss everyone's butt.
what does one do when they realize how unhappy they really are with everything around them? should i get illegally high? or perhaps see a psychiatrist and become legally high, with some prozac or suches.
now the ex best friend/troubled roommate is home. supposedly he missed me. well...if you miss someone, why would you not spend the night with them and instead of go over to your lover's house where you don't even get any loving, eh?
alright...now we're going to have a "talk."
wish me luck...