Ohh..well, where to start? I got kidnapped. Serena phoned out of the blue and said she was coming down with a bunch of Duncaners; so we all headed to the gay bar. Well yeah, the Duncan queers invaded. They had a drag showTiamat was there with her girlfriend. Serena was not terribly impressed with the selection of women. Just none her type, except one, and I can tell that.
I kind of felt bad, but they all left early, being most came for the show and well, we go to get plastered. I didn't drink my face off amazingly. But we did get pulled over for going the wrong way down a one way road and Nolan got breathalized and everything. Fortunately I knew one of the cops and Nolan was smart enough to itterate the fact that we were from Duncan and we actually chatted to one of them about the drag show. The one younger cop went "Fuck man, we missed the show down at Prism." God, I could have pissed myself, right then and there. Nolan was stoned and pissed up a lil and we all got away fine, and home fine.
Anyways, Duncan was good I guess. Nothing too terribly lively last night. Good sex. God I love good sex. I miss having that around 24/7....Oy..
Hmmm....Going to Nanaimo this weekend. Tanya is apparently leaving (she's in my pics if anyone cares). She's moving to Van and this will be her last weekend. So I figure find someone's to crash at; and take Serena and go out with the ladies. I want to see Jen. Oddly. I want to see Jen. I hope she is okay. I don't really know what to think. I don't really ever want to let serena read this so I think I'm going to vent here.
She had sex with Jen. Now for anyone's interest this is my sort of girlfriend's ex fiance. And mind you, after they've broken up. Now we're not really together being that she's an hour away, but well..I see her pretty much every two or three days, Jen sees her every two weeks. I don't feel in my place to say something. But I really hadn't excpected that from Serena. When I heard that, I had a sudden doubt in my heart about her again, and it is still lingering. Just brings back the fact that she would do that without thinking about the amount of pain that that puts me through. I know I haven't really said anything about if it happens I'd be mad...But I've expressed that I couldn't handle one more total abandonment from her.
I just don't really know. I want to sit down and talk. But I have so many limitations on what I think would be appropriate to say. We're not together therefore I exhibit no right to take away her free will. But I don't want to be with her right now. I mean. I don't know. She's the only person I'm with, but I'm trying....I dunno.
Moneywise I get paid on wed or thurs, which isn't bad. I'm still about $130 within my credit limit and I'm going to be dropping $424 increments on my visa bi-weekly. Yeah credit establishment.
I want to call paddy like right now. Maybe I will email him. I don't know when he works and I would feel horrid if I woke him up and he had to work early or something.
Blah. I think I will email him tomorrow.
I'm going to find a job tomorrow. I have decided that I needed stress leave from Nanaimo, not just work. Now I need a stress leave from my mother and if I get a job that gets me out of the house another 50% of the time that I am here. So she gets happy about that. And if I have a well established job by end of summer I'm more apt to keeping it.
I kind of felt bad, but they all left early, being most came for the show and well, we go to get plastered. I didn't drink my face off amazingly. But we did get pulled over for going the wrong way down a one way road and Nolan got breathalized and everything. Fortunately I knew one of the cops and Nolan was smart enough to itterate the fact that we were from Duncan and we actually chatted to one of them about the drag show. The one younger cop went "Fuck man, we missed the show down at Prism." God, I could have pissed myself, right then and there. Nolan was stoned and pissed up a lil and we all got away fine, and home fine.
Anyways, Duncan was good I guess. Nothing too terribly lively last night. Good sex. God I love good sex. I miss having that around 24/7....Oy..
Hmmm....Going to Nanaimo this weekend. Tanya is apparently leaving (she's in my pics if anyone cares). She's moving to Van and this will be her last weekend. So I figure find someone's to crash at; and take Serena and go out with the ladies. I want to see Jen. Oddly. I want to see Jen. I hope she is okay. I don't really know what to think. I don't really ever want to let serena read this so I think I'm going to vent here.
She had sex with Jen. Now for anyone's interest this is my sort of girlfriend's ex fiance. And mind you, after they've broken up. Now we're not really together being that she's an hour away, but well..I see her pretty much every two or three days, Jen sees her every two weeks. I don't feel in my place to say something. But I really hadn't excpected that from Serena. When I heard that, I had a sudden doubt in my heart about her again, and it is still lingering. Just brings back the fact that she would do that without thinking about the amount of pain that that puts me through. I know I haven't really said anything about if it happens I'd be mad...But I've expressed that I couldn't handle one more total abandonment from her.
I just don't really know. I want to sit down and talk. But I have so many limitations on what I think would be appropriate to say. We're not together therefore I exhibit no right to take away her free will. But I don't want to be with her right now. I mean. I don't know. She's the only person I'm with, but I'm trying....I dunno.
Moneywise I get paid on wed or thurs, which isn't bad. I'm still about $130 within my credit limit and I'm going to be dropping $424 increments on my visa bi-weekly. Yeah credit establishment.
I want to call paddy like right now. Maybe I will email him. I don't know when he works and I would feel horrid if I woke him up and he had to work early or something.
Blah. I think I will email him tomorrow.
I'm going to find a job tomorrow. I have decided that I needed stress leave from Nanaimo, not just work. Now I need a stress leave from my mother and if I get a job that gets me out of the house another 50% of the time that I am here. So she gets happy about that. And if I have a well established job by end of summer I'm more apt to keeping it.