shinracorp

ok so heres my ecct rundown.

fucking amazing.

i thank all of you, i would love to single out people, but you know who you are since i probably spent the majority of the weekend talking to you. for those whom i didnt meet or talk to more, im sorry, i wish there was more time. i almost wish that we had a week or more and that the camp was maybe a little less stretched out. but i digress.

i did meet a few who inspired me and whom i owe my time to. i was among a few others who were getting sick of the politics of this site and my career on sg had run its course. this weekend was to be my last trip and i was going to ride into the sunset. the ones who showed me compassion and opened their minds and hearts to me and showed me a good time even though you had no idea who i was. you are the people, and those are the values that teach me. i will be staying on a bit longer, if anything just to be able to attend this trip again next year. the organizers were great, fuck... im not calling anyone organizers or attendees or +1s anymore. i am just going to call you friends.

i am writing this so fast that i know im spelling shit wrong, but i need to get the words out before they escape without thought. there are a few friends who i met this weekend. i dont care how far you are, or how much a plane ride may cost i would love to visit you in the near future and have fun and learn from you.

a few friends in particular made me so that my life has been utterly changed... i may sound stupid concidering maybe we passed on a couple hours of conversation, and half of that was while intoxicated but there was a magic in the air and a knowledge that people can make their way, and that this shy boy can do things. i want a better job, go back to school, do volunteer work, lose a lil bit of weight and get in some sort of shape, learn hobbies and crafts, maybe just take the time to breath the air and realize that it isnt all about stress, it isnt all about everyone else, its also about yourself.

there were many funny instances, there were many deep conversations, maybe a little too much booze, maybe too many cigarettes. friendships are formed so quickly, maybe a few of them dont stick, but at least you tried and at least you put yourself out there.

i thank EVERYONE who attended, even if we didnt talk, you came and you made the difference.

so i sit here exhausted and bruised, scraped, and beaten... i stand here changed. i feel an air of change, i see good things ahead.

one last time thank you, every single one of you. use my blog if you would, to post your favorite experiences of our trip or maybe your least favorite. time to get some more sleep.

-Steve

-"code brown"
-"phi phi beach"
-"the bees dont like alcohol anymore"
-"i got the poo on me"
-no pants
-our own circle
-dirty patomic
-mad dog 20/20
-boones farm
-cider
-gummy worms
-hanshin tigers
-puke in tent
-low rafters
-cigarette beer
-big hill
-big farts
-fuck i gotta stop this, just too, too many.