OK! i have to get this out before i lose my train of thought... its kinda depressing to me and it sucks so i thought id write it out. because if i cant complain here... then where can i?
this was prompted by an interview in the new revolver magazine, in which killswitch engage grace the cover. sooooooooo 3 of my favorite bands (killswitch engage, shadows fall, and the acacia strain) all came out of the town where i lived for 5 years at school (westfield, ma). when i went there i knew these guys through friends and had met a few of them and luckily for me i got to see them ALL at fat cats in west springfield... which was a tiny bar type club. these bands were amazing to me then, and i loved the kind of hometown pride they provided.
my friend katie grew up with brian fair the lead singer of shadows fall and so id get to go backstage and stuff when i was with her. my friend introduced me to the lead singer vincent from acacia strain, and i knew adam the guitarist from kse because he used to go to beer tastings at the liquor store i frequented. so i sorta knew these guys casually. i knew other bands members but had only met them once or twice.
my girlfriend at the time, who im still not 100% over knew alot of these guys, more than i did and she would say hi to them in the grocery store and whatnot and then we broke up.
after she had left me high and dry and i graduated from that hole of a town (it was an industrial town, and im sure its one of the reasons why so many metal bands came from there) i felt kind of a disdain or disconnection from these bands. everytime i saw or heard someone or some song i would get depressed over here and get pissed off. so i put all these bands on the shelf for a while.
concidering that i never had any bad experiences with kse i still listened to them and they are probably one of my favorite bands of all time. shadows fall kinda fell away because i no longer talked to kt, and i was outta acacia strain for a while because i had gotten in a fight with my friend misty who knew them. recently i met the guys from bury your dead who are managed by the lead singer from kse... the bassist dates my friends sister. they all kinda pretended i didnt exist even though i tried to talk to them, i guess im just not cool enough. at ozzfest 2 years later i saw kse again and they rocked my socks off... to the annoyance of everyone around me i belted out every single lyric and note and riff i possibly could. before shadows fall went on i saw brian (lead singer of sf) so i went up to say hi and asked about katie. he had no idea who i was and kinda acted like a dick and shrugged me off to talk to other people. i wished him a good show and went and got more beer instead of watching the set because i was very lack luster with the band at this point. i still havent recovered from that and as i read about shadows fall in the acticle it brought back pissed off memories. their music is great but the guys are assholes... to me at least.
so i guess the bottom line is that i loved college and all my friends there and had a great time. i loved the music while i was there and for the most part still do. but all the bad shit that happened those 5 years of my life, left a sour taste in my mouth. my girlfriend crushed me, i said goodbye unknowingly for the last time to good friends, i lost all my friends to distance who would go to these shows with me. i would still love to go see killswitch engage but im not into going to see bands by myself and i cant seem to find metal buddies anymore who will go to these shows and drink and sing and just have fun like i used to.
so i probably left out some important pieces in this story o' mine and maybe im just being too self concious but i still cant shake this shit.
sorry about rambling... so heres a picture of my head in the background of an acacia strain show.
this was prompted by an interview in the new revolver magazine, in which killswitch engage grace the cover. sooooooooo 3 of my favorite bands (killswitch engage, shadows fall, and the acacia strain) all came out of the town where i lived for 5 years at school (westfield, ma). when i went there i knew these guys through friends and had met a few of them and luckily for me i got to see them ALL at fat cats in west springfield... which was a tiny bar type club. these bands were amazing to me then, and i loved the kind of hometown pride they provided.
my friend katie grew up with brian fair the lead singer of shadows fall and so id get to go backstage and stuff when i was with her. my friend introduced me to the lead singer vincent from acacia strain, and i knew adam the guitarist from kse because he used to go to beer tastings at the liquor store i frequented. so i sorta knew these guys casually. i knew other bands members but had only met them once or twice.
my girlfriend at the time, who im still not 100% over knew alot of these guys, more than i did and she would say hi to them in the grocery store and whatnot and then we broke up.
after she had left me high and dry and i graduated from that hole of a town (it was an industrial town, and im sure its one of the reasons why so many metal bands came from there) i felt kind of a disdain or disconnection from these bands. everytime i saw or heard someone or some song i would get depressed over here and get pissed off. so i put all these bands on the shelf for a while.
concidering that i never had any bad experiences with kse i still listened to them and they are probably one of my favorite bands of all time. shadows fall kinda fell away because i no longer talked to kt, and i was outta acacia strain for a while because i had gotten in a fight with my friend misty who knew them. recently i met the guys from bury your dead who are managed by the lead singer from kse... the bassist dates my friends sister. they all kinda pretended i didnt exist even though i tried to talk to them, i guess im just not cool enough. at ozzfest 2 years later i saw kse again and they rocked my socks off... to the annoyance of everyone around me i belted out every single lyric and note and riff i possibly could. before shadows fall went on i saw brian (lead singer of sf) so i went up to say hi and asked about katie. he had no idea who i was and kinda acted like a dick and shrugged me off to talk to other people. i wished him a good show and went and got more beer instead of watching the set because i was very lack luster with the band at this point. i still havent recovered from that and as i read about shadows fall in the acticle it brought back pissed off memories. their music is great but the guys are assholes... to me at least.
so i guess the bottom line is that i loved college and all my friends there and had a great time. i loved the music while i was there and for the most part still do. but all the bad shit that happened those 5 years of my life, left a sour taste in my mouth. my girlfriend crushed me, i said goodbye unknowingly for the last time to good friends, i lost all my friends to distance who would go to these shows with me. i would still love to go see killswitch engage but im not into going to see bands by myself and i cant seem to find metal buddies anymore who will go to these shows and drink and sing and just have fun like i used to.
so i probably left out some important pieces in this story o' mine and maybe im just being too self concious but i still cant shake this shit.
sorry about rambling... so heres a picture of my head in the background of an acacia strain show.
i hate when people get like that (in response to your comments)