So in the past two days, three guys have told me Rob spoils me. One of them was Rob, but that surprised me even more since he says he's a bad boyfriend.
I fooled around with my ex last night, which Rob let me do in the past, but he had told me no more of.
I got away with it again, but I feel really bad. I also realized how I don't even find it pleasurable to even make out with any guy other than Rob, I don't even know why I do it. So I'm not letting myself do it anymore. I'm excited, no more feeling like shit and doing things I know will start fights.
But I wanted Zach to play with my hair, which I love having done, and he wouldn't do it because he said "All you do is take" and that Rob had spoiled me by doing whatever I want. Maybe Rob does spoil me, if he stops I snap my fingers and he's back at it. Usually by the end of a visit my head is sore from being rubbed on and his arm is sore from doing it. But I also give back more to Rob, I'm always jumping his bones and clinging to him.
And just now he told me he went to the zoo with his friends yesterday, and I started pouting because he went without me and I was jealous.
I am such a baby when it comes to him, but I can't help it. I want to be able to go on dates with him and see him and hug him and just enjoy his company. He's distracted with homework right now and I just want to curl up on a sofa with him while he works on his laptop and nap while enjoying being with him.
Right now if I don't miss a day of school I'll graduate 6/6/09. If I keep going how I'm going (I clock in a bit late once in awhile) it'll be 6/10/09. I know I'm going to miss 3-4 days right now, two for a wedding and related wedding stuff, and possibly two to visit Rob later this month. So hopefully by early July, or better yet, by June 21 (my 23 birthday, yuck I'm old) I'll be living with him in the same state, and married to him.
Oh, if anybody knows of decent hotels in St. Louis, feel free to inform me. Or knows how to find one, I'm stupid, haha.
I fooled around with my ex last night, which Rob let me do in the past, but he had told me no more of.
I got away with it again, but I feel really bad. I also realized how I don't even find it pleasurable to even make out with any guy other than Rob, I don't even know why I do it. So I'm not letting myself do it anymore. I'm excited, no more feeling like shit and doing things I know will start fights.
But I wanted Zach to play with my hair, which I love having done, and he wouldn't do it because he said "All you do is take" and that Rob had spoiled me by doing whatever I want. Maybe Rob does spoil me, if he stops I snap my fingers and he's back at it. Usually by the end of a visit my head is sore from being rubbed on and his arm is sore from doing it. But I also give back more to Rob, I'm always jumping his bones and clinging to him.
And just now he told me he went to the zoo with his friends yesterday, and I started pouting because he went without me and I was jealous.
I am such a baby when it comes to him, but I can't help it. I want to be able to go on dates with him and see him and hug him and just enjoy his company. He's distracted with homework right now and I just want to curl up on a sofa with him while he works on his laptop and nap while enjoying being with him.
Right now if I don't miss a day of school I'll graduate 6/6/09. If I keep going how I'm going (I clock in a bit late once in awhile) it'll be 6/10/09. I know I'm going to miss 3-4 days right now, two for a wedding and related wedding stuff, and possibly two to visit Rob later this month. So hopefully by early July, or better yet, by June 21 (my 23 birthday, yuck I'm old) I'll be living with him in the same state, and married to him.
Oh, if anybody knows of decent hotels in St. Louis, feel free to inform me. Or knows how to find one, I'm stupid, haha.