But it's about $60, so there's no way I could afford it since I never dress up for Halloween, the most I do is work on Halloween, anyways... So I have no reason to wear it, but I wants it.
I never got those shoes with the stars that I wanted, but I got some that are possibly even cuter... or at least that I'll wear more since they match more stuff... plus, I got 'em for work.
They are oh so sparkly and cute. I got a lot of compliments on my outfit at work the other day, including my new shoes, it made me happy. I also got new pants and a new shirt, 'cause of work.
I've been thinking lately, I'd really like to be a real plus-sized model... like the kind in fashion magazines and for websites. I don't care about nude posing online, but I'm not even considering persuing it even as a on the side thing like I want to with fashion modeling. I'm never gonna be a size 0, and I don't want to... but I could totally be a size 14-18. I just never have anybody photograph me, so I really have no experience and I feel bad asking people to so I can get used to posing. But I looked at models and I like to think I'm just as pretty... so I dunno. A major problem is Alabama probably doesn't have much need for models...but with Rob's degree his best locations would be California or Florida, so maybe.
My major problem is I'd probably have to spend a lot of money on getting my hair done regularly, which I don't do now 'cause I'm poor... and my eyebrows done, because when I do them there's no promising they'll com out right... and getting my skin clear and my teeth whitened and crap. And excersizing regularly and changing my diet to include healthier food...which I'm already doing. It's all stuff I wish I could do regularly, but I can't (other than the dieting...and the area I live in is a bad place to go running). I have one friend who is a semi-aspiring photographer, I suppose that's what you'd call him... he offered to photograph me, but I'm afraid I'll feel dumb posing with somebody I semi-know when I know he usually photographs tiny, beautiful girls who it doesn't take effort to get amazing photos of. Plus we're not super-close, but we're close enough to where I'm afraid I'd just be self-conscious that he thinks I'm horrible to photograph and is too nice to say so.
Also, recent discussions with friends yet again make me sad I have yet to be hit on by a woman. I'm not loveable enough.
And because I haven't done it in awhile, random photo of me:
I'm a loser, and I've learned to accept it.
the one you like rules too.
get it and do a set.
i love being on a community where it's perfectly acceptable for me to say "hey, get naked."