Well, I've hardly been on SG the past couple weeks. We finally got cable internet at my house, unfortunately it's been a battle to get it to work... It typically cuts out after a few minutes. For the past few hours it's been working and it's a shock to me. I also have to figure out how to set up the network from our router onto my mom's computer, which I'm having difficulty with... It's wireless, since we're on seperate floors, that's the problem.
I'm trying to find a new job that I'll really enjoy to replace the Rave. Unfortunately, the last interview I had was a place I really want to work and they were afraid they wouldn't have enough hours for me... which would change my almost completely open availabilty... which changes everything, I guess. I'm going to call them back Tuesday...I suppose. I work a big chunk of the day. Maybe I could have talked my way out of it had I not worked a long shift at the Rave, dealing with angry parents and such right until I went straight to my interview with just a change of clothes and a bit of eyeshadow. It seems to be the same, if I have to stay at the Rave nobody wants to hire me. I want to leave the Rave, I just ask for about 30 hours a week at least. It's really depressing for me, I want out of the Rave so bad... I love the Rave, don't get me wrong... I just feel like the Rave and I are moving in a different direction, and I'm making every effort to try to work with it but I don't feel like they're making any effort to work with me. I almost wish I'd been fired so I could go and be like "I'll take what I can get!" and get the jobs I want, but since I have a job my mom will not be happy if I take a job with less hours. So, I suppose if you read this and wouldn't mind, pray to whatever powers you believe in or whatever you do when you want something to happen for somebody. My mom was trying to cheer me up yesterday 'cause I called and even though I was positive about how well I interviewed, she could tell I was depressed 'cause I'm pretty paranoid that they won't have the hours and won't hire me...I should think positive, but I have trouble doing that so much.
I got my haircut the other day, I don't really like it but I don't hate it. It was pretty much a trim, but as usual I got my bangs cut shorter than I want because it's every 6 months I get my haircut and so I need to have plenty of room for my bangs to grow. They also need to be out of my face for work, anyways.
I've wasted my money on a bunch of money and some clothes. I do need the clothes, or at least can argue it... I really need to pay off some of my debts. I wish I could find the perfect, or almost perfect job for me.
Rob and I had a little issue one night, I've been snapping at him a lot lately and even though when we first started dating I told him he'd get sick of it, at the time he insisted he wouldn't... Well, he admitted he is starting to get tired of it, I'm trying to hold back sometimes when I want to snap more. We also found out he won't be moving here by June, we're hoping he'll visit for my birthday, but it's not set in stone. He applied for a college up there in Missouri that will take him 3 years (almost year round, but not quite) to complete, and in the end he'll have some degree with computers and hopefully can get a good job. I wish I could be graduated by then, but at the rate I'm going there won't be any way. I'm just worried about dealing with the lonliness for three more years... but I love him a lot and he loves me, so with some hard work and determination hopefully we'll be fine. I never really minded being single, I think the worst lonliness is having somebody and not being able to be with them... especially when your friends have their local relationships that they parade around in your face. My friends really don't do that, but some have in the past... I've learned to over-look it, plus my relationship seems so much stronger.
I've been singing a lot lately, I almost had forgotten what a good singing voice I have. My throat is still messed up from my death cold, so I can really only sing higher tenor/lower alto parts without coughing or my voice cracking... I miss when I could easily sing 3 octaves, especially when I could sing soprano, which is so hard now to sustain.... I just need to find a choir to join to excersize my voice again.
Also, I have been listening to Follow Me by Uncle Cracker (or is it Kracker? I don't know much about singers) a lot lately, in case anybody was interested in what I listen to.
I'm trying to find a new job that I'll really enjoy to replace the Rave. Unfortunately, the last interview I had was a place I really want to work and they were afraid they wouldn't have enough hours for me... which would change my almost completely open availabilty... which changes everything, I guess. I'm going to call them back Tuesday...I suppose. I work a big chunk of the day. Maybe I could have talked my way out of it had I not worked a long shift at the Rave, dealing with angry parents and such right until I went straight to my interview with just a change of clothes and a bit of eyeshadow. It seems to be the same, if I have to stay at the Rave nobody wants to hire me. I want to leave the Rave, I just ask for about 30 hours a week at least. It's really depressing for me, I want out of the Rave so bad... I love the Rave, don't get me wrong... I just feel like the Rave and I are moving in a different direction, and I'm making every effort to try to work with it but I don't feel like they're making any effort to work with me. I almost wish I'd been fired so I could go and be like "I'll take what I can get!" and get the jobs I want, but since I have a job my mom will not be happy if I take a job with less hours. So, I suppose if you read this and wouldn't mind, pray to whatever powers you believe in or whatever you do when you want something to happen for somebody. My mom was trying to cheer me up yesterday 'cause I called and even though I was positive about how well I interviewed, she could tell I was depressed 'cause I'm pretty paranoid that they won't have the hours and won't hire me...I should think positive, but I have trouble doing that so much.
I got my haircut the other day, I don't really like it but I don't hate it. It was pretty much a trim, but as usual I got my bangs cut shorter than I want because it's every 6 months I get my haircut and so I need to have plenty of room for my bangs to grow. They also need to be out of my face for work, anyways.
I've wasted my money on a bunch of money and some clothes. I do need the clothes, or at least can argue it... I really need to pay off some of my debts. I wish I could find the perfect, or almost perfect job for me.
Rob and I had a little issue one night, I've been snapping at him a lot lately and even though when we first started dating I told him he'd get sick of it, at the time he insisted he wouldn't... Well, he admitted he is starting to get tired of it, I'm trying to hold back sometimes when I want to snap more. We also found out he won't be moving here by June, we're hoping he'll visit for my birthday, but it's not set in stone. He applied for a college up there in Missouri that will take him 3 years (almost year round, but not quite) to complete, and in the end he'll have some degree with computers and hopefully can get a good job. I wish I could be graduated by then, but at the rate I'm going there won't be any way. I'm just worried about dealing with the lonliness for three more years... but I love him a lot and he loves me, so with some hard work and determination hopefully we'll be fine. I never really minded being single, I think the worst lonliness is having somebody and not being able to be with them... especially when your friends have their local relationships that they parade around in your face. My friends really don't do that, but some have in the past... I've learned to over-look it, plus my relationship seems so much stronger.
I've been singing a lot lately, I almost had forgotten what a good singing voice I have. My throat is still messed up from my death cold, so I can really only sing higher tenor/lower alto parts without coughing or my voice cracking... I miss when I could easily sing 3 octaves, especially when I could sing soprano, which is so hard now to sustain.... I just need to find a choir to join to excersize my voice again.
Also, I have been listening to Follow Me by Uncle Cracker (or is it Kracker? I don't know much about singers) a lot lately, in case anybody was interested in what I listen to.
hossenfeffah:
Uncle Kracker (i think) is pretty fun, though i haven't listened to them much in a long time. 
Long distance relationships blow big time. Make sure you make out with Joie a lot to help compensate... tweak her nipples for me and vice versa and take pix and share with me. She's being mean and unwilling to share. XD Keep trying to take classes. It's hard but it'll be worth it. Just make sure you're going into something you KNOW you'll enjoy. And not just enjoy but have a passion for. I got my hair cut the other day too, and she cut the front okay but left way too much on the sides. I ended up trying to trim some of it off my ears myself, and it turned out *okay* but definitely not professional. oh well. Good luck with the job hunt, that's gotta be one of the most stressful things to have to deal with. Ugh. Hope all is well cutie!!
Long distance relationships blow big time. Make sure you make out with Joie a lot to help compensate... tweak her nipples for me and vice versa and take pix and share with me. She's being mean and unwilling to share. XD Keep trying to take classes. It's hard but it'll be worth it. Just make sure you're going into something you KNOW you'll enjoy. And not just enjoy but have a passion for. I got my hair cut the other day too, and she cut the front okay but left way too much on the sides. I ended up trying to trim some of it off my ears myself, and it turned out *okay* but definitely not professional. oh well. Good luck with the job hunt, that's gotta be one of the most stressful things to have to deal with. Ugh. Hope all is well cutie!!