Im really glad you didnt do it, I maybe just some internet guy in some far away state but we have been friends for a long time, I have seen you go thru some tuff times and you have seen me go thru some tuff times, I know you have a lot of friends out there who love you, they are the ones you need to turn to when things get to tuff, I know this is not easy, I know it will take time for you to get to a point where you are not depressed over this, but I think you can do it, I would hate to see another beautiful soul taken from this earth
I still think about it, too, but less and less often.
Hang in there! It gets better!