I hate to beat a dead horse, but the shit with my mom just keeps going. Please refer to my last blog if you are in the dark about my mother's insanity.
She has now decided to not come down here to my (super cool, super liberal) aunt's house for Thanksgiving, saying she would rather spend the holiday with some of her friends who "believe in what she believes in". My guess is that she knows deep down that nobody wants to be around her, and she knows she has been an asshole to me and said shitty things about my boyfriend, and can't face us.
I am also willing to bet good money that about 3 days before Thanksgiving, she will have an epiphany and decide to be some big martyr and come down here anyway, totally fucking up my deal. Um, sorry if I work in the restaurant biz and want to work the day after Thanksgiving and make 300 bucks. How shitty of me.
I really think my mom is jealous that I have a good man in my life, because she is a frigid uptight bitch and can't stand to see me happy. If anything, her recent bullshit has made me closer to my man, because he has been really good to me during all of this, and I have realized that sometimes your family will fuck you over, but people that truly love you will persevere. I am so lucky to have a man that I know will never let me down.
Even though I bitch about my mom a lot, and we disagree about pretty much everything, I am just worn the fuck out by her recent attacks on me. I am getting more comfortable with just letting it go, I have not contacted her in days, and I know I just need to get on with my life, with or without her in it. I really believe every night when I put my head on the pillow that I am a good person, and that is really all I think I need.
She has now decided to not come down here to my (super cool, super liberal) aunt's house for Thanksgiving, saying she would rather spend the holiday with some of her friends who "believe in what she believes in". My guess is that she knows deep down that nobody wants to be around her, and she knows she has been an asshole to me and said shitty things about my boyfriend, and can't face us.
I am also willing to bet good money that about 3 days before Thanksgiving, she will have an epiphany and decide to be some big martyr and come down here anyway, totally fucking up my deal. Um, sorry if I work in the restaurant biz and want to work the day after Thanksgiving and make 300 bucks. How shitty of me.
I really think my mom is jealous that I have a good man in my life, because she is a frigid uptight bitch and can't stand to see me happy. If anything, her recent bullshit has made me closer to my man, because he has been really good to me during all of this, and I have realized that sometimes your family will fuck you over, but people that truly love you will persevere. I am so lucky to have a man that I know will never let me down.
Even though I bitch about my mom a lot, and we disagree about pretty much everything, I am just worn the fuck out by her recent attacks on me. I am getting more comfortable with just letting it go, I have not contacted her in days, and I know I just need to get on with my life, with or without her in it. I really believe every night when I put my head on the pillow that I am a good person, and that is really all I think I need.
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jena:
Did/do you love Whiskeytown? Punktry for you. One of my favorites.
jena:
I still hunger to hear again their badass beautiful cover of Fleetwood Mac's Dreams again. I had it on disc years ago but broke it from playing it so much. It was so amazing.