shesinparties

I have recently come to the harsh conclusion that I am not "cool".
At least by this site's measures, and I mean no bitchiness at all by that.

I don't look cool, I don't act cool, and I am okay with this.
I am so out of the loop on new music, and would be more so if I didn't pay attention to
trocc's playlist on his blog. I thank him for that.

All my winter sweaters are from LL Bean, very sensible and dorky, yet warm as fuck.
I am enthralled with throw pillows and soft blankets.
I am very resistant to change, but getting better about it.
I love my houseplants, how fucked off is that?
I don't like driving at night, and always go the speed limit.
I make my bed every day.

I want a more "normal" life.
I want to have a job where I have to get up early and have to go to bed early.
A job where I can use my mind and not come home at midnight reeking of food and margaritas.
I have taken myself out of all the sexual groups I used to be in on this site, because they started seeming gross to me.
I really don't care about other peoples sexual conquests, call me a prude if you will, whatever.
I also recently deleted 256 pages of PM's that included people I don't even know saying shit like "I love your titties, check out my webcam so you can see me jack off"!! Ew, who does that?

I love going to my man's part of town and going to new (to me) bad ass hole in the wall Mexican restaurants.
I love sleeping in a house as opposed to my apartment.
I love coming home and seeing my dog immediately rolling over for me to rub his belly.
I love waking up with both my kitties curled up with me.

So, basically, I am a nerd.
My "cool" period was over a long time ago,
Trust me, I tried really hard.
Back in the day when I cared what people thought about me.
Back when I thought I had something to prove.
I think that was pretty much when I was in 9th grade.

Now I know I don't have anything to prove.
Never did.
I am just me.
Take it or leave it.

Hell, I might even start cooking or knitting or some shit.