shemyaza74

Intitiation Blog:

To those who know me, the dearest, I have had a hard struggle this past year, tinged with ups and downs, with a few sideways movements. 3 days ago was the anniversary of my major Motorcyle Accident in Southend, I was able to stand after hitting a car head on but totalling my beloved Silver and Black Suzuki Bandit 656cc. Since then I have had the odd Track day and enjoyed a great ride with my instructor Derek around the twisties of Essex on Boxing day. I am still unable to pick up the handle bars without hesitation once you lose it, its lost. A shame.

I had downs of my accident causing me to lose control of the stress I had in a very high paying job in London which I was in essence forced to resign from in March 2007, since then I have taken time out from life and tried to enjoy the splendours of Spain, Norfolk, Essex, Nottingham and London. It was a wonderful summer for multitudes of reasons and with a little learning from a few who I have seen not only as listeners, but in some ways teachers too, I have found myself again. It was a long journey that those who are close to me have felt a little shocked at seeing me go through. Toni, John, Wendy, thank you so much for getting me through March last year, I was sinking.

Since the summer, the odd few, I shall keep them nameless but one knows the Gipper :-) have had a lovely impact in my life in the past several months. I can say for sure, this past year goes down as the most conservative and difficult year in my life. I NEVARRRRRRR want to have another like it. I have hardly travelled, I have been at times low, needy, yet bouncy and happy. I am typically go-get-em and a wild thang which I am re-finding.

I have not touched my fabled Tarot cards now in months, as I want it, with my abilities today again referred to as gifted but un-refined. Lisa is a good guide and she is very spooky with accuracy at times. My Paganism is totally un-explored but just to say I have been for 7 years and I know the pathway I am comfy with. Oy I don't cut heads off chickens or drink goats blood, thats at Toby's on a Sunday Kodak Special :-)

I threw myself back into the search for work before Christmas, a particularly turbulent time that week, I agonised over my ability to rejoin the workforce after being turned down by Eon for a job in Rayleigh, a job the feedback of which was gobsmackingly woeful. To the staff apparently at Leicester Eon, you turned me down but inspired me to get back into the role I made my castle, Payroll.

After temping with CXC Consultancy Exchange over the festive period, I took on 3 Job Interviews for permanent work. Cancer Research UK, The Shoe Studio and Newlons Housing Trust. I succeeded with all 3 interviews however 2 of the above came back with offers, leaving a 2nd interview with Cancer Research a negative choice. I chose the Shoe Studio. Less money by alot but from before Christmas to now, I'd take a job where the people seemed genuine. Newlons, I have to say was a MacGyver job and I ain't up to doing that a 3rd time in my life.

So now I work in London just off Oxford Street, I work in the office in casual wear and I get to browse the streets of London at lunch and after work at my leisure. It has been a long journey, many hard decisions, many tough realisations to how 2 faced people you have known for years can be, but I will hold my head up and set the example. Enjoy life, treat every moment preciously and live life to the full, grab it and take it for all its worth!! Now for a slice of Snow Cake yay!!!

Shemyaza ;-)