shellz

You know those people that it seems like they get everything in life? I'm not one of them. I have been lied to and hurt by most of the people i used to hold close to me. It has gone from good to ok to bad to worse which leaves me where i am now.


I keep trying to be this nice happy person and all that ever happens is someone finds a way to screw me. Someone has to talk shit someone has to lie to me. They think i am stupid and i dont know what is going on but i am a strong believer in hope. Someone told me that their favorite word in spanish was esperan which means to wait and to wait is to have hope and with out hope you have nothing. I believe in waiting for what u want it might not happen right away but you in the end you will get what u deserve.

To all the guys that fuck girls over... karma is a bitch and u will get it back thats just how life works.

I am confident in my self and i know i will make it in life cause i just have to get pasted all the asshole along the way.

I do have trust issues that comes with being hurt and that makes me clingy when i actually like someone. I just dont want to be lied to anymore i want people to be up front with me. dont say one thing to my face and something else behind my back. dont go out for a night and have fun then decided its not what you wanted. My ex boyfriend hurt me more than anyone in my life but he is still there for me and hes the only one that doesnt keep on hurting me in some way he trys to be my friend he trys to make things work with me and him. And most of all he is there when i need him which is more than i can say for alot of people (this excludes Jen Jeni Casey Megan Nikki Mandi Danny Frankie Willy and Joel there is more i just cant think) the people that leave comments on my myspace and call me are my true friends.

You know that feeling you get in your stomach when something is wrong you should trust it cause that means something is wrong most the time i have grown to know they difference between nerves and this feeling and it has never failed me yet. So to everyone please dont treat me like i am dumb i know whats going on and i can be a bitch if i want to. i would just rather not play childish games and be the bigger person...

Thanks to everyone that reads this.

SheLLz <3