Today was awesome-
tonight is all tired...
muscles recoiling from ballet and yoga and biking in the cold snow.
looking for completion on the computer screen,
I bow in submission to the blinding light of the web-
finally I come back to who I am--
and turn it off and find my hollow self.
where do I go from here??
to bed, to food, to fantasies of illusive sex,
trying to convince myself it is all o.k.
tomorrow I will get up , tonight forgotten--
then I'll go through it all again
and feel rotten.................