Saturday Jul 09, 2011

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today was a weird day.
it's been a weird past couple days.

but i'm feeling better for the most part. and i'm trying to be as happy as i can be.
smile
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carina:
<3 I just saw your reply in GO. Hopefully something will ease up soon so I can be up there. And once I do your presence is needed for hang outs.
sriracha:
Don't worry about weird.. weird passes. Keep beein happy, thats what matters.

Monday Jul 04, 2011

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even though it's temporary, and it's a "break" it still feels like a break up.
it hurts. and i hate it.

what if it does end up in a break up. what if he realizes he doesn't want to be with me after all.

i keep thinking about all of the negative things that could come out of it, but i know i should focus...
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burnwitme:
yeah i hope its just a bump in the road for the both of us. but only time will tell.
coollkefonzie:
like you said it's good it hurts.
that means something.

the relationship is real. which means it definately has a chance. if it's what you really want, give him his space for a little bit. but fight for him when the time has come to do so smile

we've been officially together for 3 years. but we dated for a year before that.
it's the lack of trying that upsets me the most.
I've told him how i felt, and that i know i can't hold on much longer if things don't change, and that we would crumble when i moved if things didn't change. and he promises a lot. and never comes through.
if it didn't feel like he was lying everytime we talked about it, i might feel better.
but i know he's a good guy, and that no one's going to love me like he does....

*sigh*
it's hard all over ain't it?

Sunday Jul 03, 2011

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so my bf and i are taking a break.

it was mutual [for the most part].

we both need to figure out what we want in life. and seeing that he's been my only bf [7.5 years], he feels like i should know how it is to be independent for a while. and i totally get it. we love each other, we want what's best...
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flores:
That sounds eerily similar to what's happening here.
flores:
I hope so.
It's rough. I still have to live with him.
I hate being around him now.
It's too painful.
I'm here til at least the 17th though. :\

Monday Jun 27, 2011

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DAMN YOU MATH.
you're hurting my brainz.
mazgaoten:
So y = r cubed over 3. And if you determine the rate of change in this curve correctly, I think you'll be pleasantly surprised.
silentwhisper:
word

Saturday Jun 25, 2011

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so the only time i ended up leaving the house today, was to pick up some food and beer. i'm okay with that.
so far i have not gone insane.

there's a real l word marathon on tv so i've been watching that. i never watched it before, so i'm kind of sad i'm starting on season 2, but it's all good. i'm kind of...
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mazgaoten:
i went grocery shopping. then watched movies.
and ate too much pepperoni.
and cake.
flores:
I know exactly what you mean.

Saturday Jun 25, 2011

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who wants to hang out with me tonight?

i'm lonely, and one more night alone may drive me to insanity.
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mazgaoten:
that's too bad. i'd totally share my popcorn.
bob:
It depends on the ingredients you use to make the pops...but I've made a couple and they set in about 7-10 minutes (more on the side of 7).

I'm really liking it so far.

Wednesday Jun 22, 2011

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just booked a flight to D.C. coming up in September.
wewt. i'm in need of a vacay.
it'll be my first time out there, visiting my sister and my cutie niece.
i'm excited.

next up, i shall be booking a flight to L.A., and S.F. area, hopefully in October or November.

yay traveling. it's long overdue.
longlostsapper:
I dont like to travel

Sunday Jun 05, 2011

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sometime's i feel like i'm slapped in the face with reality.
i love myself.
i realized i shouldn't waste time with regrets, bad thoughts, and self hate.
forget about the past, stop worrying about the future, focus on now and just love yourself.

how to love yourself:
feed your body real food. eliminate or limit your intake of processed foods.
water. and lot's of it....
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finella:
The best way to be. I think everyone should read this. smile
mr_orange:
Fresh strawberries fit into that plan! Mmmmmmm!
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