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I need new tires on my motorcycle. It's not safe to ride. So, I'm starting to ride my bicycle to work at least until I get new tires. The van just costs too much in gas to drive everday. I rode yesterday and it was nice. I really enjoy it. Coworkers give you weird looks, but they do that anyway. I'm taking a rest day today, but I'd like to get to the point where I'm biking every day.

I'm still in limbo, babysitting my successors, trying to squeeze in work for my new job. It should only last a few more weeks, but it's a real test of patience in the meantime. Part of the problem is that some people have written me off and they don't respect me much in the meantime. I could confront them, but I think it would do more to give them the satisfaction rather than accomplish much for me.

I have the distinction of having the lowest status in the company while have some authority over others. I never wanted it. I'm not much for authority. I didn't seek it out. It was the job that was being offered. Since I'm on the way out, asserting myself is seen as a power trip. It leaves me with the desire to just say "fuck it" and walk away. Politics. Territorial pissings. I guess I can just see it as an exercise in patience and humility. However, the next time someone disrespects me in front of everybody, I will call them out. I don't deserve this petty shit.

I'm really enjoying all the free time I have now. I'm getting home from work by 8 and no class to study for. So, I'm trying to get the apartment clean and work on music as much as possible. I'm working less overtime now, so I need to be more mindful about spending.

I'm looking forward to maybe seeing Pirates this weekend.