this has been the most boring day... someone entertain me........
i dont get it. lately ive been seeing alot of my old "friends" , "buddies", "aquaintances" , getting married for all the wrong reasons. there must be some sort of pre-mid-life crisis that happens around yur mid or late 20s. or maybe its just that the older you get, the more you find out that most people in the world are just shallow and matterial....
Read More
Read More
its time to meet some new people...
well. the last year of my life has been insane. it seems like all my 25 years of life lesson waited till this year and then just jammed itself in m life all a the same time. but. im still here. apparently im alot stronger than i thought. im also alot crazier than i ever thought id be too though. hehe
VIEW 9 of 9 COMMENTS
rezerdee:
You never talk to me anymore,
it makes me a sad poppet
oxo
it makes me a sad poppet
oxo
rubyfoo:
Stronger is a good think, and a little bit of crazy helps....
well. you would think that life would give ya a break just once. but no. just when you think it cant get any worse, it does. i hope this shit stops soon or i'll be dead.
aluka:
Nah, all the shit that's been happening just opens you up to move on to better things 
Hang in there kiddo
P.S. see you soon!!! Soooo excited to see you again and Roman's even more excited to meet you!
Hang in there kiddo
P.S. see you soon!!! Soooo excited to see you again and Roman's even more excited to meet you!
apate:
i know, life's a bunch of shit. i lost mine once i got this new job. And now one of my roommates, who used to be one of my best friends is just... i don't know, he doesn't do anything. He is depressed, but we don't know what to do because we work all the time, so we're tired, plus we're all completely broke (we don't even eat anymore). He doesn't have a job, so he doesn't know. He's actually never had a job, now that i think about it...
i think i just want my friends back... i don't know why i'm complaining about it to you, though.
But, i know you don't believe it, but you'll be okay. When people say stuff like that to me, i don't believe it, but i'm magical, so i know these things, Kitty! I'll even make you another gift and send it to you if it will make you feel even the slightest bit better. :3
i think i just want my friends back... i don't know why i'm complaining about it to you, though.
But, i know you don't believe it, but you'll be okay. When people say stuff like that to me, i don't believe it, but i'm magical, so i know these things, Kitty! I'll even make you another gift and send it to you if it will make you feel even the slightest bit better. :3
whoa. i hear frogs in my computer. anyways time for a new blog. i have nothing on my mind at the time. im into art right now, sculpting things of clay right now, hopefully it wont end up shitty. hhmmmm what else. i think thats about it for the night. now im off to bed. to dream of women with skulls dancing among a fire....
Read More
Read More
VIEW 10 of 10 COMMENTS
snarky:
Mike. Mike. Mike. How are you doing, darling?
givememedicine:
hayyyyy dear. how are you? haven't talked to you in a while.. =[
im fuckin depressed lately. im tired of my life. im tired of being so in debt that i still have to live in my parents basement. im tired of being alone. i think im damned to live this life on my own and not have anyone to share the days with. and alot of people just say "oh youll find someone some day" but thats...
Read More
Read More
VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
apate:
Fuck... i WISH we had a photoclass at our high school... because maybe then i wouldn't have to make a darkroom in my basement, i could just use theirs. The closest one that i would be able to use is 6 hours away, so that's not going to happen.
And... uh... i'll tell Tim and Eric you said hi! lol! Yeah, like i'll get to talk to them... hehe. But i hope you start feeling better soon.
:3
And... uh... i'll tell Tim and Eric you said hi! lol! Yeah, like i'll get to talk to them... hehe. But i hope you start feeling better soon.
:3
aluka:
Miss you kiddo!
Miss you kiddo!
the human mind is such a fragile thing. yet at the same time is more powerful than anything. it can cure or kill you. its has no idea whats sane or insane. it takes years to become stong.... but it can be shattered in a day, or hour, or second. it can empower you. and it can all to easily torture you, until you pray...
Read More
Read More
VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
snarky:
i miss yoooooooou.
punk..
i never get to talk to you anymore
>_<
punk..
i never get to talk to you anymore
>_<
aluka:
Awwww! Thanx for the awesome testimonial, you damn cutie! *offers you some absinthe* 
hhhmmmm.... time for a new post. bored shitless right now, as usual. haha.
i did pierce my eyebrow yesterday though. shoving the needle through was easy, but putting the jewlery in took fuckin forever. i had to have my bassist shove that shit through as hard as he could. i thought my eyebrow would have been way bruised but it looks pretty durn good.
man,...
Read More
i did pierce my eyebrow yesterday though. shoving the needle through was easy, but putting the jewlery in took fuckin forever. i had to have my bassist shove that shit through as hard as he could. i thought my eyebrow would have been way bruised but it looks pretty durn good.
man,...
Read More
VIEW 9 of 9 COMMENTS
luz:
yeah, the video used to scare me too! thanks for watching....more to come later in the week.
)
well, it seems that ive run out of my medication. and im completely broke until this thursday. hhmmm..... should be an interesting week. hehe 
oh well, 4 days isnt too bad.
oh well, 4 days isnt too bad.VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
xalicex:
aww thanks. there arnt many pictures of myself that i like.
reid:
Thank you so much for your comment! xo
xoDepression hits hard again. yay me. oh well, im used to it. just like im used to being alone, dissapointed, and stuck in life. i guess feeling happy or content is just too much to ask for.
chaos. the world revolves around. a god, nothings there. karma, a simple fairytale. love, a childhood lie. nothing here to save you. nothing here to fear. only chaos,...
Read More
chaos. the world revolves around. a god, nothings there. karma, a simple fairytale. love, a childhood lie. nothing here to save you. nothing here to fear. only chaos,...
Read More
VIEW 8 of 8 COMMENTS
apate:
i think, the problem with the world is that there is love, but everyone is just looking for it. If you look for it, you will never find it. i have always accidentally found it.
i have often thought that there was something wrong with me; everyone i cared about either never really saw me, or they left me for another female, or the city. i have slept with monsters, fucked Eros, fell in love with Orpheus. Even if none of them stay, even if they end up leaving me, because all (i think) i'm good for, sometimes, is fucking, i still refuse to give up. i know what i lost to a chemical boy is out there in someone else. He might be the man with calm-before-the-storm eyes and hair that reminds me of Autumn, the one who tells me that he likes my words and plays his music that makes me want him more, or he might be a boy with his cherry cyanide girl who tells him to stop looking for the mermaids in the ocean. In the end, love can't find you if you just run so far ahead of it.
i have often thought that there was something wrong with me; everyone i cared about either never really saw me, or they left me for another female, or the city. i have slept with monsters, fucked Eros, fell in love with Orpheus. Even if none of them stay, even if they end up leaving me, because all (i think) i'm good for, sometimes, is fucking, i still refuse to give up. i know what i lost to a chemical boy is out there in someone else. He might be the man with calm-before-the-storm eyes and hair that reminds me of Autumn, the one who tells me that he likes my words and plays his music that makes me want him more, or he might be a boy with his cherry cyanide girl who tells him to stop looking for the mermaids in the ocean. In the end, love can't find you if you just run so far ahead of it.
pandie:
Hey thanks for commenting on my SCS set.
Things will get better. I think in the end we are all essentially alone but sometimes this is better than a lot of the alternatives.
xo
Things will get better. I think in the end we are all essentially alone but sometimes this is better than a lot of the alternatives.
xo
hhmmm.... so many things run through my mind at election time. i like to keep track of the race, cuz i like to know where the hell my country is going next. although ignorance truely is bliss, i just have to be informed of every aspect of reality. the educated and consious path is a difficult path to take, but i must take it, yet...
Read More
Read More
VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
givememedicine:
eeeee i love your new picture! shaggyness is amazing.
snarky:
i misses yoooooooou
that new picture =
that new picture =