So I did it totally. I told Wensly that we couldn't date any longer. I told him that I need to focus on my adjusting here and to school. I didn't tell him about Michael because that would be just wrong. Not to mention I already was listening to him cry. I cried a lot last night too. Not to devalue my relationship with Michael or anything,just one of those things. I hate to see things end, and I guess we both played a part in it, although I could have been a better person and tried to control my emotions, which is stupid because who can.
I just hated hearing him crying. He's really a good guy. Even if the water and phone was turned off when I was living with him. (This happen when I first meet Michael) Wensly and I had an "open" relationship. Which may have been the doom from the beginning. But still. It's what it is now. I am a bit relieved and I want to be his friend but I don't think that would be appropriate.
Bad thing, I received a plant in the mail today from him. He sent it weeks ago when it was our two year anniversary but it was never delievered. Imagine that. The irony of it all. I told him when it didn't show to cancel it. I thought it was dropped but it wasn't.
I am going to eat sushi tonight at a new place. Hopefully I can drown my sorrows!
Oh and I got all wierd on Michael after I did it. I told him that he needs to tell me now, right now if there is not going to be an us in five years. We said some really weird things when we met because of the way our relationships were going. He saying that he believes that there is just a 5 year cap on relationships and tI said I was never getting married because of what was going on in my relationship. But I told him that I want to have a family one day, that I want to have kids and I'll do it alone if I have to but I don't want to remain in a relationship with him if we don't have a future or at least let me know if I should be guarded. I want the bridal gown, the screaming kids, and the aging person next to me. Helping me out of the hair place and into the car (I saw that today at the Hair Cuttery it was an emotional scene for me to see a 70 something old man helping his wife to the car, that's love that's what I want)... ERRRGH..
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I just hated hearing him crying. He's really a good guy. Even if the water and phone was turned off when I was living with him. (This happen when I first meet Michael) Wensly and I had an "open" relationship. Which may have been the doom from the beginning. But still. It's what it is now. I am a bit relieved and I want to be his friend but I don't think that would be appropriate.
Bad thing, I received a plant in the mail today from him. He sent it weeks ago when it was our two year anniversary but it was never delievered. Imagine that. The irony of it all. I told him when it didn't show to cancel it. I thought it was dropped but it wasn't.
I am going to eat sushi tonight at a new place. Hopefully I can drown my sorrows!
Oh and I got all wierd on Michael after I did it. I told him that he needs to tell me now, right now if there is not going to be an us in five years. We said some really weird things when we met because of the way our relationships were going. He saying that he believes that there is just a 5 year cap on relationships and tI said I was never getting married because of what was going on in my relationship. But I told him that I want to have a family one day, that I want to have kids and I'll do it alone if I have to but I don't want to remain in a relationship with him if we don't have a future or at least let me know if I should be guarded. I want the bridal gown, the screaming kids, and the aging person next to me. Helping me out of the hair place and into the car (I saw that today at the Hair Cuttery it was an emotional scene for me to see a 70 something old man helping his wife to the car, that's love that's what I want)... ERRRGH..
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