shaneka

Happy Mother's Day to all!!


I am not actually a mother, of humans, that is. But I did get a mother's day present from my kitty kids:



A book on T shirt Transformations and a lovely card with a peacock feather:

This actually made my week that just passed a lot better.

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Wednesday I went to my general quack doctor. Ok he's not a quack. I went because my allergies have been acting up, the same allergies I have had all of my life. He told me a couple of months ago to just take some Claritin and a decongestant or Claritin D or ALvert D and that the pain should subside. Well, almost a year later, I still have the clogged ears and the hay fever season has caused other issues. He had the nerve to ask me, How do you know it's allergies. Er, itchy watery eyes, runny or stuffy nose, 20+ years of the same issues? So he gave me a script for Singular and some free samples and just now I notice that I am already a bit clearer.

The other issues i went for was the IBS like symptoms I've had all my life as well. Since I was six. I told him this and got a referral to a gastrointesntial (SPl?) doctor.

And i told him I was depressed.... He wrote it down.... And that's it.

I took an HIV test as well because I did the at home one when he first told me. Negative. I am a bit anxious about the test, even though the at home one is 99.95% accurate. I declined the first in office test because the thought of waiting to talk to the doctor, hearing a sigh, and then hearing the results, good or bad, just flips me the fuck out. The at home test I was able to listen on my own terms and deal with it. Supposidly I am to be able to just take home the results in an envelope. Who knows. I am still scared about the test, even though I took one over a year ago and am still with the same person for almost 3 years. I pick up the results this week sometime.

I am still conflicted about the response to my confessions of depression. I was on the verge of crying when I was explaining it. Mostly because I know that I swing in moods often and that I am not a nice person to live with. I wanted to address this issue and my anxiety to make me a better person to be with and a better person for myself so I don't have grey hair at 30. I may call him and tell him that I want a referral to someone else who can help with the anxiety and depression that I have dealt with all of this time.



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So I am HIV negative... That was a big roller coaster.