shaneka

So my mom got into an accident yesterday. Thank GoD Gen was there to help her. The day before my brother came to get his stuff out of the shed because my mom is renting both sides of her duplex with the back duplex getting access to the shed. She told him he had to have it out by Saturday and he came that day complaining that she ruined his vacation time off because he had to take the day to go get his stuff... My brother the holy roller asshole didn't even give her a hug or kiss... I left a message and told him she was in an accident and if he felt like he shoudl have hugged her....Here are our emails:

Robert:

You know what i am at work dont lay a guilt trip on me. I an sorry she got it a call wreck but it was not my fault. I am not to blame. And i still stand by my feelings and decisions i made yesterday. None the less they are my hugs and kisses i issue them out to whomever i want. You may think mom is right but she is not. So if you take her side that is fine but dont try to manipulate my feelings.

ME;
Why do you think that you are so right? What if she died tomorrow?

Robert:
I dont have to explain my reasons to you. To told mother how I feel and that is all that matters. If she died today does not mean I should let people walk over me. That is a horrible excuse. If that was the case we should allow everyone to take advantage of our emotions and our bodies. The possibility of death is around the corner for everything we do and like I said is still no excuse for anyone motives in anything. I am not trying to be hard headed or who right and who is wrong I am just not allowing people to walk over me, so there you have it. later

Temporary Inconvenience for Permanent Improvement


ME:

You want to walk all over other people. No one walked all over you, you are angry because you expect that you are to get what you want. You are not understanding of circumstances. You don't care that she is trying to make things work and take care of grandma and Jim, who are ailing and growing older and sicker every day. No one said that you had to let someone walk all over you. You can calmly disagree with someone, give them love and let them know that you don't agree. No, everything has to be on your own terms. Your term which are very faltered. When will you accept things are not perfect and stop thinking that you are always the victim. you are very ungrateful. You could have had a mother who kicked you out at 16.. She didn't have to let you lean on her and not pay bills. Come to visit and have candy wrappers and shit left in the room because you can't clean up after yourself, I know, because I'd visit after you and have to clean the whole room because it was disgusting. A lot of parents don't even let their children stay when they are 18. You have to grow up. I didn't want to say it before, but you are a hypocrite. You act like going to church is going to save you, but it won't...Since you only choose to follow less than half of what you preach.

I didn't say she was right or you were wrong for whatever the situation was at that given point. But you have to take ownership of your own things.. You had ample time to get your crap. You are very selfish.

I don't know who got to your head that you would think it is ok not to at least so goodbye or show some affection. Holding out love is not the CHRISTIAN way.. and if it is... i would certainly denounce any sort of christian attributes. Christ forgave, willingly.....

I don't want to fight with you. But I don't want to see mom in pain. She has been blaming herself for the way you have been treating her. Saying it was all her fault. But it's not all her fault. You are an adult. you have to grow up and realize that sometimes things are not perfect. You should be supportive of the fact that mom is trying to be there for Jim and grandma, even if they think they don't need it. But they do because they can't manage money, since they went bankrupt, and they are both getting really sick. She shouldn't have ever had to work in a factory and just because she didn't stay there so you could have a place to live at 22, doesn't give you the right to be angry at her. She is trying to make it so she doesn't have to work all of her life, since she has been since she was a teenager. She provided a life where you didn't have to run away. Where you were able to have friends and remain in the same town instead of moving from place to place. You should be grateful she didn't abort you like uncle donald suggested her to do when she got pregnant. That she already loved you before you were a heartbeat. ANd if you truly needed it, if you were disabled, she'd be the first person to help you. But you are not, you are a functioning able bodied MAN. You are angry because she didn't let you walk all over her..... If you think that she had no hand in the person that you became, then you are dead wrong.

I am really disappointed in you. Not that I don't love you. But I am so confused as to why you think everything is owed to you and why you can't appreciate what your mother is. Even if she were a drug addicted, stealer, you should still love her. She loves you, even if you are an ungrateful, hypocrite of a man


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So I sat in the bathroom sobbing... Mostly because i can't believe he is being such a jerk.. Partly because I wasn't there to help her myself. I don't know what to do.. I don't want to move to mIssissippi and I am not certain if I can move back to new orleans, make a decent wage and Michael get a good job.

I do know this... I am losing what are blood family members and just keeping my friend family members more and more each day. it's a sickening life fact that i wish I didn't have to face.