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Listening to Anthony and the Johnsons , again ... Crying again ... Love this song:

For Today I Am A Boy

One day Ill grow up, Ill be a beautiful woman.
One day Ill grow up, Ill be a beautiful girl.
One day Ill grow up, Ill be a beautiful woman.
One day Ill grow up, Ill be a beautiful girl.

But for today I am a child, for today I am a boy.
For today I am a child, for today I am a boy.
For today I am a child, for today I am a boy.

One day Ill grow up, Ill feel the power in me.
One day Ill grow up, of this Im sure.
One day Ill grow up, I know whom within me.
One day Ill grow up, feel it full and pure.

But for today I am a child, for today I am a boy.
For today I am a child, for today I am a boy.
For today I am a child, for today I am a boy.

For today I am a child, for today I am a boy.
For today I am a child, for today I am a boy.
For today I am a child, for today I am a boy.
For today I am a child, for today I am a boy.


Reminds me of my exbf .... he's a transexual and he's in transition to become a man , he's what people call FTM Female to Male , a man in a woman body. Who has already seen the movie " Boys dont cry " ? So it's the same thing, my ex is just like Hilary Swank in that movie ... So much pain .... so so much pain ....
I've held his hands for 3 years ... Pushing him, helping him, giving him all my energy and love ... I've done everything for him ...My life has been a real mess for 3 years ... well that's the past .... This song just remind me all this pain, how life can be so complicated ... Even things that are so simple .... Anyway .....

I should stop thinking about that .... I'm bluesy now ....


I love this painting:



I just love Aaron Kraten 's work.