shadowkrakken

My goals have changed. I kinda feel lost and without a self image, or inhibited from creating the self image that i want. Either way, my mojo's gone and i need to travel back in time to find out i've always had it. need dat time machine...

my goal is to go through life without exerting control on anyone else, to not manipulate them in any way. to go through life realizing i own no one, that i am just lucky the ones i cherish want to be around me. it doesn't matter if people do what i want or recognize my worth because i know exactly who i am and who...
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Reality is relative. If you're so inclined to become insane, or turned that way by circumstance or tragedy, your own personal reality may become impenetrable by the "real word" and then it will be the only reality. I'm just asking, no real intention behind it, would any of you like to throw away sanity with me so we can roam the countryside slaying dragons? just...
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my cat died saturday. i've had her since i was 8, so she was 12. she had kidney cancer and was in a lot of pain so she was put down. shitsux. :C i've noticed my habits change slightly, in odd ways, and i think it's because i'm expressing my sadness through those actions, it's not on the surface anymore so that might be it....
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Mecha$word... fucking awesome. So far they have two tracks out on soundcloud and i already know they're gonna fucking awesome. I love nerdcore so much. check em out if you can.

I learned a few things about kendo yesterday, and learned more things about myself. For instance, no matter how i win, someone critiques my points and says they aren't correct in some fashion; not enough zanshin, etc. etc. One of my goals is to make sure no one can dispute my attack as anything put correct. I will work towards that perfect attack until no...
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It's interesting to see practical techniques and notice the small intricacies of the technique that you've never noticed before. it's also interesting to note that martial art is like any other art created by humans, it can be morphed and moved into another direction or form by the human imagination. one of my favorite manifestations of the combination of imagination and martial arts is the...
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Tested out the original work out. it sucked mightily. since then i've been trying to find the most efficient way to gain the strength i need in order to get stronger in kendo. i did a home work out thing, it didn't work out that well, i did gain strength, but my body fat percentage went up. since then, i lost my job. so now...
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Kendo is hard. i know this is ignorant sounding, "why wouldn't a martial art be hard?" you might say. It takes on a whole new sense of reality when you're staring the proverbial cliff of progress in the face, as ironic as that may sound.

My sensei stopped practice mid-way through in order to tell us something. He told us the percentage of people who...
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HOKAY! blog time.

to start things off, i've almost had a profile at this site for a year and I haven't contributed anything to it. >.< gotta change that.

i like this site a lot. everyone can show whatever they got that might be seen as negative in another setting without hesitation. I have nerdy and geek tendencies and so it's great to see Suicide...
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