Vicious Circle
I want a job I like. Fuck! I mean I could get a job right now with LSI in Hawaii making $6000. Take home after taxes. Sounds to good to be true eh? Thats what I said but J-Lo and I talked for a while about it and I think its legit. Well most of it isnt even taxable because its per diem. But I dont know if this is what I want to do? I already see whats going to happen though, Im going to get back in shape get sick of it here and take the job probably, just to get away. What am I running from? Why am I always running? I mean Im never going to be happy, Ill get into a situation and then Ill get sick of it and want to try something else. Its just a vicious circle
I want a job I like. Fuck! I mean I could get a job right now with LSI in Hawaii making $6000. Take home after taxes. Sounds to good to be true eh? Thats what I said but J-Lo and I talked for a while about it and I think its legit. Well most of it isnt even taxable because its per diem. But I dont know if this is what I want to do? I already see whats going to happen though, Im going to get back in shape get sick of it here and take the job probably, just to get away. What am I running from? Why am I always running? I mean Im never going to be happy, Ill get into a situation and then Ill get sick of it and want to try something else. Its just a vicious circle
sometimes cycles like that tend to spiral downward but can be turned to spiral upward and hopefully then stabilize in a good place.
i think once you find a place that's good for you this circle you speak of will end because you won't want something better, you'll have something better. it's just the icky process of finding the niche that works for you.
i say don't give up on it yet.