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Monday September 12, 2005 - 2:41 AM
Herpes
Wow!! Sin city was amazing!!! I love that movie. I can't wait to watch it on the computer with my bose headphones on.
I have been either infected with the herpes virus or cptpopetastic has some how transfered her fever blisters to me. Now if this turns out to be a cole soar it had to be that bitch saphire from burning man and I know where she works! I'll go ratt a tatt tatt that ass if she infected me!
While feeling angry angry
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Sunday September 11, 2005 - 11:08 PM
Well I'm going to go watch Sin City
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Sunday September 11, 2005 - 9:20 PM
So what a day. Started out ok, I didn't sleep much though. Got up at about 0530 and went and showered and brushed moi teeth. Then got the parents up and they got ready. So we go for breakfast at dennies and the moral support begins from my mom. Then it just hit me, of how much of a failure I am but with this outstanding family that supports me. I just get my meal take 2 bites and excuse myself to the bathroom so my parents don't see the tears welling up in my eyes.
So I go take a piss but this just gives me time to think alone and I lose it. Luckily I had my sunglasses on my head because I break down. I go to the table with tears running down my face in the middle of breakfast rushhour and tell my parents I'm not feeling well and I'll be outside but to take there time. So I'm outside crying like a little bitch conflicted with these emotions of how shitty of a person I am and how greatful I am and how much my parents care for me, I can't control it and I can't stop it. I immediatly call the one person who knows me better than anyone else and may be able to help but she's at work and I end up getting moral support from her mother who probably disppises me now anyway. I'm out there by the car doing my best to suck it up and my Mom comes out and gives me a hug, well that's going to help me stop and I'm a sobbing mess. My Dad comes out a little later and I can tell is weirded out but doing his best to support me.
All I wanted to do was to go home and crawl into bed but I knew that would be really shitty for my parnets so I say, or try to say I'll be ok let's still go. So we get in the car and I begin to wimper to them of how sorry I am and that I hate being a burden but I really appreciate the help. Then they start asking me questions and I think I revealed more than they wanted to hear, and I knew I shouldn't have told them so much of what I saw and what has happend to me and what still happens to me.
Well good thing it's a long drive to Virginia City, we goto there and I managed to stop crying but looked like a fuckin nut case. Again thank-god for the sunglasses. So we proceed through the day and I'm better now but still sad on the inside. I fucking hate this! This is the worst my life has ever been. My parents have to fucking take care of me and I'm god damn 29 years old crying infront of everyone like a little bitch. Seriously sometimes I just think that people would get over it in time and that it makes more sense to just end it.
Fuck This World
While feeling horrible horrible
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Sunday September 11, 2005 - 11:36 AM
ok gotta go play tourist with the rents
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Sunday September 11, 2005 - 11:34 AM
I was looking at getting this for BurningMan next Year but it's for someone who's 5,8. angryView this image in its album
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Sunday September 11, 2005 - 9:38 AM
Flipside
Ouch here is some real flashback for yea, just picked out some highlights
How can one be such a fool
Monday May 19, 2003
You know I just dont know what Id do without Nancy. She is my music now because she is my everything.
Wednesday May 21, 2003 - 7:38 PM
Naaaaa
I think we are the victims of an assault. I think were being hacked, Ill let Nancy explain everythings that went wrong. I have to go get her in here: She gotta hold of that damn Bubble Bobble Game again do do do didodododo do di dod didod that music is making me FUCKING crazy! and she loves Bubble Bobble so much! I have often thought what might happen if it got lost.
Friday June 13, 2003 - 10:13 PM
The following soldiers appear on the HQDA Monthly SGT/SSG Promotion Selection Name List and have been selected for promotion for 1 July 2003.
SHAW JASON SPC 68F 20030701
Saturday June 14, 2003 - 8:01 PM
Stupid puppy
Yes my dog is not stupid as far as dogs go even some humans but shes a nut so I call her stupid. Dio is our pride and joy, our child, and I casnt imagine it without her. I love her and Nancy so much Id die without them
While feeling nauseous
Thursday November 27, 2003
Well I have to drop my college and life for the Mission Essential Tasking of a fabulous year long vacation in Sunny Iraq!!!
I miss you and love you lots and if I didnt come home you cant kill yourself because the puppy would have no first family love and thats not fair Love you both and Ill talk to you soon.
Love Jay
Friday January 23, 2004
Dells fast and the place is like an actual building. Oh this is starting to get better and better here.
Id rather be with my baby though. heart io I miss you so much Oh Baby......Im sorry........I love you a lil more than the puppy but never tell. Ok?
While feeling happy
Saturday January 31, 2004
I love her more than life
I guess I should go to bed. Ive been up staring at Nancys photos. Im the luckiest cat around!!! Hellz yea!
While feeling nauseous nauseous
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Sunday September 11, 2005 - 9:30 AM
Flashback
I like this one better. It has some decent audio to complement it
Yes Yes if your a faithfull follower you may remember these from back when I truly was at wartrip
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Monday September 12, 2005 - 2:41 AM
Herpes
Wow!! Sin city was amazing!!! I love that movie. I can't wait to watch it on the computer with my bose headphones on.
I have been either infected with the herpes virus or cptpopetastic has some how transfered her fever blisters to me. Now if this turns out to be a cole soar it had to be that bitch saphire from burning man and I know where she works! I'll go ratt a tatt tatt that ass if she infected me!
While feeling angry angry
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Sunday September 11, 2005 - 11:08 PM
Well I'm going to go watch Sin City
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Sunday September 11, 2005 - 9:20 PM
So what a day. Started out ok, I didn't sleep much though. Got up at about 0530 and went and showered and brushed moi teeth. Then got the parents up and they got ready. So we go for breakfast at dennies and the moral support begins from my mom. Then it just hit me, of how much of a failure I am but with this outstanding family that supports me. I just get my meal take 2 bites and excuse myself to the bathroom so my parents don't see the tears welling up in my eyes.
So I go take a piss but this just gives me time to think alone and I lose it. Luckily I had my sunglasses on my head because I break down. I go to the table with tears running down my face in the middle of breakfast rushhour and tell my parents I'm not feeling well and I'll be outside but to take there time. So I'm outside crying like a little bitch conflicted with these emotions of how shitty of a person I am and how greatful I am and how much my parents care for me, I can't control it and I can't stop it. I immediatly call the one person who knows me better than anyone else and may be able to help but she's at work and I end up getting moral support from her mother who probably disppises me now anyway. I'm out there by the car doing my best to suck it up and my Mom comes out and gives me a hug, well that's going to help me stop and I'm a sobbing mess. My Dad comes out a little later and I can tell is weirded out but doing his best to support me.
All I wanted to do was to go home and crawl into bed but I knew that would be really shitty for my parnets so I say, or try to say I'll be ok let's still go. So we get in the car and I begin to wimper to them of how sorry I am and that I hate being a burden but I really appreciate the help. Then they start asking me questions and I think I revealed more than they wanted to hear, and I knew I shouldn't have told them so much of what I saw and what has happend to me and what still happens to me.
Well good thing it's a long drive to Virginia City, we goto there and I managed to stop crying but looked like a fuckin nut case. Again thank-god for the sunglasses. So we proceed through the day and I'm better now but still sad on the inside. I fucking hate this! This is the worst my life has ever been. My parents have to fucking take care of me and I'm god damn 29 years old crying infront of everyone like a little bitch. Seriously sometimes I just think that people would get over it in time and that it makes more sense to just end it.
Fuck This World
While feeling horrible horrible
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Sunday September 11, 2005 - 11:36 AM
ok gotta go play tourist with the rents
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Sunday September 11, 2005 - 11:34 AM
I was looking at getting this for BurningMan next Year but it's for someone who's 5,8. angryView this image in its album
4 Comments | Edit | Delete
Sunday September 11, 2005 - 9:38 AM
Flipside
Ouch here is some real flashback for yea, just picked out some highlights
How can one be such a fool
Monday May 19, 2003
You know I just dont know what Id do without Nancy. She is my music now because she is my everything.
Wednesday May 21, 2003 - 7:38 PM
Naaaaa
I think we are the victims of an assault. I think were being hacked, Ill let Nancy explain everythings that went wrong. I have to go get her in here: She gotta hold of that damn Bubble Bobble Game again do do do didodododo do di dod didod that music is making me FUCKING crazy! and she loves Bubble Bobble so much! I have often thought what might happen if it got lost.
Friday June 13, 2003 - 10:13 PM
The following soldiers appear on the HQDA Monthly SGT/SSG Promotion Selection Name List and have been selected for promotion for 1 July 2003.
SHAW JASON SPC 68F 20030701
Saturday June 14, 2003 - 8:01 PM
Stupid puppy
Yes my dog is not stupid as far as dogs go even some humans but shes a nut so I call her stupid. Dio is our pride and joy, our child, and I casnt imagine it without her. I love her and Nancy so much Id die without them
While feeling nauseous
Thursday November 27, 2003
Well I have to drop my college and life for the Mission Essential Tasking of a fabulous year long vacation in Sunny Iraq!!!
I miss you and love you lots and if I didnt come home you cant kill yourself because the puppy would have no first family love and thats not fair Love you both and Ill talk to you soon.
Love Jay
Friday January 23, 2004
Dells fast and the place is like an actual building. Oh this is starting to get better and better here.
Id rather be with my baby though. heart io I miss you so much Oh Baby......Im sorry........I love you a lil more than the puppy but never tell. Ok?
While feeling happy
Saturday January 31, 2004
I love her more than life
I guess I should go to bed. Ive been up staring at Nancys photos. Im the luckiest cat around!!! Hellz yea!
While feeling nauseous nauseous
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Sunday September 11, 2005 - 9:30 AM
Flashback
I like this one better. It has some decent audio to complement it
Yes Yes if your a faithfull follower you may remember these from back when I truly was at wartrip